superfat bomb

FML

2011-06-17T00:15:00.000+08:00

Life hasnt exactly been a bed of roses lately. i mean i guess its not supposed to be.
6 months since ive written an entry and so much has changed, for the better and worse.
memories flood back on how ill excitedly blog about different things that impacted me in different ways.

and sounding like a damn loser, the only reason y ive come here to blog again is because this time, i dun feel like burdening anyone with issues that i have because its mine and others dun exactly deserve to listen me rant away at the exact time when i feel like crap. basically i dun feel like telling anyone cuz i dun think they can actually help me.

well first, JC LIFE SUCKS. It is good in many ways but overall, i pray that i can wake up 2mr and know that the JC life era is over and i ca continue living my life. its like of about 70-80 years of my life phase, and i wanna sorta erase or skip the 17-18th years and go straight to the 19th or 20th. CONFUSING MUCH?

Its not all downhill right now, im not gonna exaggerate how life is so damn bad that im dwelling in self pity but it sucks to a certain extent. i feel like i just got a taste of the real world and it tastes bland, rather unpleasant. the initial wave of taste is new, something ive never tasted before but as the taste progresses through your palette, it starts to get rather dark and gamey, all in all, rather unpleasant.

i think the reason y im COMPLAINING away is 1st of all, that im a singaporean (yes, i accept the flaws of a singaporean but im proud of our achievements too) and the 2nd is that ppl of my generation are rather pampered and dream of good life but forget reality. we dream higher than any other generations before us but the degree of awareness of the reality of life is also the lowest than any other generation.

i think im just upset that ive to go through such tough phases of my life that i feel i dun deserve to go through in the pretext that i am young.

what a whiner.

ive realised i havent talked about any problem im facing in detail. and i guess thats cuz anyone reading this now doesnt need to share my burden. i think i can handle it.
i rather bury under the mess than let someone actually look at the mess im in and laugh and walk away.

Fuck my life.
fuck my life goddamn seriously.

a recent upset

2011-01-08T22:18:00.000+08:00

recently i was pretty upset about smth.
was talking abt it.
the issue was smth small but it kinda sparked the whole thing off.
cuz its been lingering arnd for quite sometime and we ve been completely missing the ball.
i dun wanna say anything much yet cuz gan n i ended up shedding tears over this and we ve realised smth extremely impt; IT FEELS SO MUCH BETTER TO LET THINGS OUT WITH SOME WATERWORKS CUZ YOU FEEL LIK A TOTAL DIFFERENT PERSON AFTER THAT.
Im not really upset now.just neutral and blank like everyone else.
its not gonna hurt if anyone was going to stab anymore,
cuz the damage has been done,
and you can stab a man a million times,
but the fact is that he's long been DEAD.
i think metaphorically ive died too in this issue.
struggled so hard to survive but everyone has their limit and i think that was the last breath i cld take.

im writing this in a whole new perspective cuz if this was last yr, this would have been an outright HATE POST. its written with sympathy, self pity, for the fact we re not enemies or anything and hopefully with maturity.

well all has been said
and its time to move on.
i nvr want to move on but stay, but u nvr wanted me to stay in the 1st place and insisted on moving on.
BUT JUST SO U KNOW,

dun think you got the better end dude.
(LOTS OF SMILEYS)

FB anyone?

2011-01-08T22:02:00.000+08:00

heyho!
havent updated for really long, as usual.
well, thats cause, im on FACEBOOK now!!!
and its pretty fun!
i know im like a tortoise in such stuff and ppl have caught up on this so much earlier blah blah but WTV.
my dear baobei s were so nice to help me wif it cuz its so much better to do it together than sit alone at hme and fill in particulars!
so thank you very much LOVes and ill see yall on FB.
im not sure if ill really be updating much cuz blogger image upload is super slow
but i havent firmly decided to abandon my precious blog either.
but i really suck at updating this so i guess you just gotta bear with it!
results is close to a day away!

2011 anybody?

2011-01-01T01:06:00.001+08:00

1st and foremost,
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
have to keep this really short.
Omg it's 2011.
Unbelievable.
Was talking to my sweethearts and counting down together. Really funny but cute!happy new year HCBC!!!(:
heard some really annoying stuff b4 the new year.shall be happy today and talk about it 2mr!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR PPL!
BACK TO THE TOTS AWS MINI ctdown at hme.(:

Dental freak 2

2010-12-30T13:22:00.001+08:00

Visited my orthodontist, DR TAN on tues, 28 nov to get 4 teeth extracted.dun go OMFG.it's for braces.
The dental surgeon who extracted my teeth was a really nice dude who had a very fatherly vibe.but I really wasn't quite ready to get the job done 1st cuz I've heard from almost everyone I know that the extraction's a piece of cake but the injections are the killer.so when he took out the freaking fat syringe, my heart dropped.my dentist was super nice to be there to hold my hands and my mum was so annoyingly taking pics to show me later on and other nurses were like massaging my shoulders to help me relax.I was continuously praying like mad while he slowly inserted the needle and though I could feel the insertion, there was miraculously no pain!(:
I had 8 injections, 2 per teeth and though at times there were slight pricks of the needle, it wasn't like the OMFG, IM DYING KIND OF PAIN.cuz for ppl like me, who have to visit the dentist frequently for scaling and cleaning,the pain during such visits is a million times more than these small measly pricks.
So injections were slowly painlessly done.what I wasn't quite prepared was the extraction itself cuz it happened in seconds.the freaking surgeon just took that extracting instrument and just suddenly started to pluck the tooth out although he said he was checking the numbness.like WTF!the upper teeth required more pressure, which was even more scary cuz he was standing up and just tugging on it like mad.which made me have the 1st instinct to attempt to get up but a nurse held my face down firmly while he continued.I guess after all the panic attacks, I realise the extraction had to be done really fast cuz the moment the tooth comes out, it starts to bleed profusely, Esp the upper ones so to prevent a bloody mess in my mouth, it had to be done in seconds. Practically everyone in the clinic wad cheering me on and telling me a job well done which was nice to hear.
The most gross and annoying part is the entire day after.1st, the constant bleeding.I had to keep changing my gauze like a million times, couldn't swallow my saliva, hence kept dirtying my pillow and cldnt sleep.next, wearing off of the Numbness.my whole mouth felt like it was punched real hard, some sort of the blue black feeling.it really ached continuously and being a big mouth, I was constantly talking the whole day which resulted me in near tears in the evening when the irritating feeling of a gross mouth filled with blood and constant aching and difficultly to eat just got up to me.of cuz panadol was the ultimate saviour almost immediately cuz I felt much better after that.
After this whole thing, I really have a new found respect for ppl who go through extraction for braces, etc. cuz it's really easier said than done.
Having to eat cold food,
Food with 'blood' flavour,
Not able to rinse your mouth,
Having a really gross mouth that u can't get rid off
Terrible headache
The pain when the Anastasia wears off
Not able to sleep when u feel so tired
Dirtying your bed with bloody saliva
Talking like a total moron
NOT EASY.
Thank god it's over and I'll be heading back to my orthodontist today to get my top braces fixed.
I know I'll be suffering the following days not being able to eat, etc. But the fact of having nice pretty teeth and finally being able to smile properly is a motivator!

PS : I was thinking of posting my nice teeth that was extracted in the next post, just for fun!it's gonna be abit uncomfortable for some cuz it wasn't washed or anything, straight from my mouth.(:
I'll definitely put a huge disclaimer 1st b4 the picture so weak hearted ppl, get a life and skip that post rather than looking at it, and going arnd saying what a gross person, sadist, blah blah blah.

Pps: Hwee min, I can't comment on your post from my phone and it's driving me crazy!:(

Gauze

2010-12-28T12:36:00.001+08:00

Omg teeth extraction sucks!

XMAS RUM BALLS!

2010-12-26T00:36:00.000+08:00

SNAPSHOTS

2010-12-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

HCBC 1ST ANNIVERSARY

2010-12-25T23:51:00.000+08:00

HCBC ANNIVERSARY

we celebrated our awaited anniversary on 22^nd though its supposed to be on 21^st.but I guess it really doesn’t matter as long as there is full strength! All of us were so tensed and anxious about our gifts to each other. We spent time at nex, designing our beloved cake and headed back to my place for gift exchange! ALL the gifts were so nice and sweet!

Wan ping’s gift was so chio and had a personal touch to it esp when she read her letter to us! That girl started tearing, making us all start our waterworks as well!haiya!

Amirah’s one was super entertaining with that CD of all our wacky videos and UNGLAM photos and of cuz our BELOVED snapshots of our BAOBEIS!!!!!

Heather’s was a chio-ass photo frame that was PINK!(LOVE IT!!!) with our photographs! Simple yet gorgeous!

Mine was a box of stuff that included a photo album, COOKIES and a set of letters that will hopefully help us keep in touch for the next few yrs!

YALL BETTER KEEP YR PROMISE AND DUN OPEN THE LETTERS TILL THE DUE DATE AH!!!!

ok, anyway, lets come to the lovey dovey stuffzxz.

sighs.i feel the year is coming to an end way too fast.

i mean what can i say?

we literally spent the entire hols together, meeting between alternate days and sometimes way too much tt sum moms started suspecting that we were les or smth.lol.

i guess thats quite ridiculous but i feel honoured in a way cuz they actually notice and are actual proof of us really spending alot of time together.

the real reason for spending sometimes way too much time together is because im afraid we might not be able to in the future.

i mean the word future itself is filled with so much uncertainty yet hope that things would turn out well.

as the time continues to pass, i guess the collection of memories is increasing, which is good, but im also scared that the time we have together left is getting shorter second by second.

i mean yeah, we'll meet up for sure and stuff but things will never be the same again next time.

i cant scold heather gan for being so childish at times and tell her that she isnt thinking at times.

i cant scold loh wan ping for being so realistic always and to tell me what I want to hear when im feeling down.

i cant scold amirah for being too narcissistic and ego and to tell her to stop putting on such a stone face.

i duno if im prepared to have a change in the course of our friendship cuz im satisfied with how things are.

sometimes i think how foolish and childish we were over certain things and how sometimes we tend to lose our heads just way too easily.y we were so stupid to become victims of harsh treatment and resentment from ppl we absolutely had no reason to even get involved with. but i can for sure say, a 100%, that even if i can go back in time to live my life again for the past year and set things right, i would rather choose to bear all the pain and sorrow, hear the laughter and joy of our voices at our hangouts like 4th level and FLEC and have us all tucked into bed under the same roof, to be that one special clan of ours.

i know that its technically not goodbye yet cuz we have yet to get our results and be posted away to different schools but i suddenly feel like there is really not enough time.

i need more time to talk, to laugh, to do stupid embarrassing things, to curse and swear over my crush, to cry my heart out over things that upset me.

i fear the day when we see each other for the last time, knowing that things will never be the same ever again, to turn our backs on each other as we walk our seperate ways to go home.

there's alot of things ill miss.

miss our round table gossips and bitching,

jokes about each other,

PMSing away,

blushing over crushes,

etc,etc,etc.

I'LL REALLY MISS ALL OF YOU, ALL THREE OF YOU.

HEATHER GAN HWEE MIN

LOH WAN PING

AMIRAH BTE AMIR

AND ILL MISS US,

HCBC,

THE COOLEST WACKIEST

LOVING SENTIMENTAL

MUSHY CORNY

IRRITATING ANNOYING

CRAZY ASS ALCOHOLIC

CLAN EVER.

LOVE ALL 3 OF YALL WITH ALL MY HEART<3

A QUOTE FOUND IN MANY FAREWELL LETTERS, THAT MOST CERTAINLY FITS NOW,

DUN CRY THAT ITS OVER, SMILE BECAUSE IT HAPPENED.

RECENTLY...

2010-12-25T23:17:00.000+08:00

Its Christmas eve. Nearing the end of the hols and 2010.

A LOT has been going on but ive not been blogging much.

Most recent happenings.

SNOW CITY

Made a trip to snow city with amirah, hg and siblings. It was so freaking fun beyond imagination. It also was a great exercise to run up to the top of the snow tubing slide as well. Joshua is absolutely the cutest ever and it was so fun going snow tubing with him cuz his screams are way more high pitched than mine and he always supports me against HG!LOL. he was even such a sweetheart to pick out gloves for me and always calling me SUKA JIE JIE, which is so adorable! Faith is also such a sweetheart cuz she’s so nice to us! I guess being the youngest in the family really has its perks but I guess I also missed the part of playing the role as an older sister! We had a lot of photographs taken in there by the snow city crew and we chose the best one to be printed!

YUM-O

2010-12-03T16:26:00.000+08:00

Had my virgin experience at AJISEN RAMEN yest wif Hg and my Sis.
i know it sounds super dumb but honestly, my family's not a fan of japanese cuisine.
the thought of eating raw fish already numbs our palate that we'll rather go hungry instead.
of cuz Lo Hei's different cuz u cant really taste much of it but nevertheless, the general lack of spice and instead the focus on the freshness and emphasis on the authentic taste of the real food that is prevalent in japanese food does not impress us. i know many of YOU out there LOVE to eat jap food and probably are going WTF, U DUN EAT JAP FOOD!?THATS LYK VEGANS MISSING OUT ON ALL THE JUICY TENDER STEAKS.ya,wtv. but im trying to come out of my little shell with the influence of globalisation and also the attractive presentations of jap food to try it. im not exactly a HATER of jap food cuz i Love to eat teppanyaki, soba and of course, TEMPURA!!!(:
so i guess im just trying to move to intermediate level now, thats all.
We of cuz went to have ramen, DUH, according to Hg's recommendation of good ramen from there.
of cuz sushi as a side dish is out cuz as u know, not exactly a huge fan of most jap food.
we ordered the crayfish ramen and fried prawn tempura!
the serving was so damn freaking big to start off with but was awesome!(:
what i hated about the place was their poor service and charging freaking service charge when they dun allow to settle bills at the table.and the price seemed pretty hefty too.i mean the food was great but not worth the money they charge. but i guess all jap food are expensive so i cant really argue much.
In conclusion, i'll go back again if i have a craving for it.(:

29 november 2010

2010-12-03T15:48:00.000+08:00

great food at ASTONS and HARRY POTTER was awesome!Loved the sound effects especially!made our hearts jump a million beats!

upload failed

2010-12-01T23:04:00.000+08:00

out of all the photos i attempted to upload, only this surfaced.

i guess the comp feels this is the best photo or smth. upload the rest another day then(:

Shopping finally becomes a pain

2010-11-28T14:03:00.001+08:00

Ok, this is a plain post wif lots of words so pls dun read if ur alr bored.
Anyway, lots of things have been happening but I've not been updating.I know I'm supposed to have all the time in the world but I dun feel like using the time to blog.that's all(:

Anyway, recently, heather and I went shopping!!!(: I couldn't splurge like b4 cuz I'm on a real tight budget so we had to control ourselves pretty much.
We watched the HI-5 show at marina square!the real live ones frm aussie, I think.I'm not sure where they re frm actually.but who cares.loved their costume!!!so cute!but we were quite sad cuz we missed the ORIGINAL ppl who were in it when we watched it in primary school.but, anyways, it was so adorable to see all the little kids dancing and twirling about. We were supposed to catch the next show jus fr fun but we got distracted:/
We had lunch at our usual haunt PH till we were bursting!
After buying some stuff at mango, we headed down to Rubi to get some shoes as well.actually, Rubi shoes are not that cheap after all cuz their heels are priced as the same of cheap Charles and Keith heels as well.but I kinda like their heels cuz I can tahan longer in them than the gorgeous high heels frm boutiques and wherever.
We ended up spending half and hour at raffles place, looking for an ATM deposit cash machine later on and we were practically running around the mall cuz we needed to head over to somerset to com centre. At the same time, we were wondering we shld meet 20 yrs later to shop when we get married and hopefully our husbands will get us many many credit cards( even though we re financially independent ok!we re not those tai tai s wannabe with no brains and energy to earn a living).anyway, back to the story, we then ran like mad frm raffles place to somerset racing through so many ppl and almost falling in the train cuz I was so scared com centre will close. THANK GOD THEY DIDNT.but the approx waiting time to settle her phone was 1 HOUR!!! So we decided to go get a drink and curry puff nearby( it's really good!) while waiting. We got everything fixed and headed down to 313@somerset and the best part was that we didn't go into F21 cuz heather said she might go mad in there.we kinda went mad in new look and all the other stores and we had a damn budget dinner cuz we actually spent quite a bit alr.we were really worn out after that.:/
My feet was really aching the entire night.
But who cares.WE RE GOING AGAIN!(:this time, we re trying to window shop cuz we really need to know how to plan our already mini pockets of money and sniff out good bargains! And we haven't watched Harry potter yet.I know I'm a total ass by saying this but actually I haven't read the book yet and I dun know what's going on but we re still going to watch the movie.all we know is that Draco malfoy is a baddie but a cutie at the same time.and Harry potter looks funny but is nice.I know it's lame and HP fans are hurling insults right now but honestly, what's so nice about magic to be so uptight about.it's never gonna be real no matter how much you love it.I like hogwarts too and their whole sch life and lessons but it'll never be real cuz our teachers here can nvr be as cool as the ones on screen as well.
But we re still gonna watch it just for fun(:
And rapunzel, the tangled tale is also coming out.I wonder if we....

2010-11-25T19:49:00.001+08:00

Pilates was awesome and I've turned into a lazy bum after 2 wks.

2010-11-20T00:28:00.000+08:00

Love ping's new haircut and our lovable plushies!(:

SLEEPOVER.

2010-11-19T23:43:00.000+08:00

Well, we had our long awaited sleepover yesterday.or the day before.im not sure when, cuz it just progressed over the days la.LOL. pink and po came over but amy cldnt cuz of hari raya. hold yr thoughts on how selfish we can b to not include our SISTELL for we had our reasons. it would be a total bummer and anti climax that after all the planning to just cancel it.but not to worry, there are lots more sleepovers for ALL of us to have fun together!
anyways, we had indian food for dinner!so multi-cultural right! anyway, they were a great sport and tried it. i hope YALL liked it!!!:) anyways, it was to be a movie marathon but we only ended up watching 2 shows, CHARLIE's ANGELS and this murder show which was quite cool. its so boring and tiring to just lay in the couch and watch movie after movie.we re definitely NOT COUCH POTATOs,or walnuts.lol. so we decided to enjoy our coveted drink as a toast to the end of the terrifying O. i guess we pretty much spent the night scripting and directing our own mini skits and memorising lines and we found our new hair whipping star, LILY. just a sneak peak to our vids; parody on ppl we absolutely love and on latest MVs like WHIP yo hair, and LIKE a G6. and we did what we always LOVED to DO: TALK. it was such a long time since we caught up on gossips so yeah.so anyway, time passed real quick and the sun was rising alr so we headed to KFC for a hearty but simple breakfast of porridge.DEEEELICIOUS. according to schedule, we were supposed to go to bed but of cuz we have hyper active kids arnd so we ended up playing games at, as embarrassing it may be, at barbie.com, pollypocket and myscene.it was a time to relive our girly memories. i guess all the running and scrambling around the room finally toned everyone down and we FINALLY dozed off. ping, the restless one ended up poking us out of bed early so it was rise and shine in like 3 hrs of napping.and so everyone went back to their own beds and snuggled comfortably under their own covers and dozed off into a well deserved sleep.but i must say, this was the MOST enjoyable, fun and whacky Sleepover we've ever had. love yall!(LOTS OF HEARTS)

below is an extract of our summary of events written after all the fun:

Alright.hope this doesn’t blank out. We r gonna write in this order: suka, heather, wan ping. Each a sentence k? LETS START.

This was an unbelievable time in our lives.

I want to eat bananas

Well done.

This shit asses are so not cooperating.

YAMADA RYOSUKE

Oh the guy.. let’s start with yesterday @ 8pm

Wan ping was late, AS USUAL, in tots DIVA style.

We walked past the famous longkang

And lingered at the famous mini mart

Cutting all the lame shit, we started off with a blast, CHARLIE’s ANGELS!

Watched Dan Detective School around the morning plus. Creepy whistling dude ._.

Dinner was awesome and we felt like stuffed turkeys! XMAS TIME!

It was time to have some unexpected fun…we’ll leave u to guess what it was.(it wasn’t a threesome, dun worry)

GLUG GLUG GLUG

(skip)

Then we brought the theatre and drama that lies in us alive with 2 awesome SKITS about LOSERRRS.(:

HAWHAWHAWHAW

Flip your hair back n forth X3

Fly like a g6, like a g6, yeah, flyflyfly like a g6 OH YEAH!

Cameras flashing, smileszxz

High fashion nerds!!!

And we talked and talked and talked

GAB GAB GAB FA LA FLU DE FLA LA LA

From 3-6am

Tired as hell but we persevered like how we always do in School, much better than camp I must admit

Watched So You Think You Can Dance and went to TP @ 7.45am

KFC porridge meal yummy-licious

Filled our turkey bellies and headed back hme for a well deserved rest

Couldn’t sleep, wanted to play Barbie but are doing this instead ._.

(skipped)

Its boring but fun so bye byebye!

XOXOXO,

Walnuts

and of course, a few snapshots in the next post. super duper long to upload and im alr late in uploading this.

Yawns

2010-11-18T01:45:00.001+08:00

I m hungover frm all the nonsense from sleepover that i was apparently cursing and frowning and fuming in my sleep and I feel so disorientated.

Shall blog about the TOTS AWS NIGHT we had 2mr(:

Cheers<3

I THINK OLEVELS ARE OVER.

2010-11-12T23:30:00.000+08:00

ITS NOT REALLY SINKING INTO MY HEAD BUT IM PRETTY SURE OLEVELS IS OVER.LIKE FOREVER. there's not actually any overwhelming feeling or anything.but i guess it means alot of things.

1. OLevels are over.DUH

2. Our Cedar life is over.

3. The time that HCBC has is getting shorter.

4. The end of year is getting nearer.

5. We need to get thinner.

6. Problems.

7. Slacking time begins.

8. Its time to PARTY!!!

well, now its just the excitement and anxiety of getting back the results. anyway, while some of us has finished our exams, poor ping has one more paper to go but its ok, JIA YOU!moving on, heather and i made a rough list on WHAT to do this slightly 'lengthy' holiday and 1st on the list is the upcoming SLEEPOVER!!!!!HCBC, pls bring our clan juniors for them to have their CLAN meeting.lol. well, thers lots more but its a secret for now. well, heather and i headed for a hearty lunch after the paper cuz ping must be a disciplined kid n go home(i doubt she even studied) and basically we were in uniform with our bags loaded with heavy textbooks and notes.no fun to chill in a 'cedarian' outfit.and by the time we took vids and pics, it was 4+. and i realised that i havent uploaded alot of photos since study break.so i guess i now hav time to finally blog frequently. For all those awesome ppl who hav been faithfully visiting this space, finally life's gonna be better and n nt so monotonous anymore! well, enough talk for now.

see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil

once upon a time, there were 3 walnuts rolling on a wooden table.a photographer thought it would be cute to snap a shot of those awesome walnuts. the camera and flash fascinated the pale walnut, pissed the roasted one off and the yellow walnut was giggling so much she practically rolled away clumsily.poor walnuts.

hearts ppl

i knew they always had a murderous intention

for those who are rolling yr eyes off these awesome pics, a SUPERBLY annoying shot to press you on on rolling yr eyes till they dislocate from your socket.(:

OMG.GREASY YUMMY FISH AND CHIPS!:O

CREAMY RICH ICE CREAM TREAT<3

well thats all for now.and thank you so much to every single kind soul that has rooted for me this far!(: i appreciate it!<3

Minutes and hours

2010-11-12T10:12:00.001+08:00

Is this It or WHAT!?

2010-11-12T10:11:00.001+08:00

My heart sank when I saw the retort stand.

And I guess he'll never update again.

2010-10-21T17:38:00.001+08:00

My heart sank when I saw the retort stand.

And I guess he'll never update again.

You know I was thinking...

2010-09-30T17:40:00.001+08:00

I duno.
I guess it's about credibility.I mean like at the age of 16, I wanna have real friendship, real relationships, not based on benefits or anything, just based on how well we can interact together.as friends, buddies, etc. Like a Real sense of camaraderie from anything we embark on.
But u know I was thinking,
Does wanting to have such real fulfilling relationships means u gotta be naive and blind? Or maybe it's not possible to find that warm fuzzy feeling anymore cuz the world has just gone forward too fast to place much emphasis on care and concern.
The people whom I thought were my real buddies, regardless of gender, never failed to let me down in the past.what makes me so sure that it won't happen again to me?won't happen now?or maybe next yr or the next or the next decade?i really duno how I was so damn freaking sure.like hello!?nothing is permanent!?I think it's my naivety that led to that confidence.well,there was just this sudden brainwave and I lost this confidence.maybe it's good cuz I feel enlightened?or maybe it's bad cuz now I just feel like crap, like a xylem cell without lignin.(y the fuck m I talking BIO!?)

Anyway, today I had time and space to just think, even though it was just a bit cuz I spent the rest of the time yaking away to steffie.but coming back to the point, i just feel everything is so shaky and I had this one companion,( which was also temporary btw) but someone who just knew the right things to say to when I felt like crap.whether it was objective or not, it was definitely better than sitting and thinking. Ok wait, maybe i got myself into this shit by thinking so much.killing unnecessary brain cells that would come into great use during olevels.

Ah fuck.I should probably stop thinking so much of all this unnecessay stuff and FOCUS. F O C U S.there's so many million things waiting for me in the world and I'm pondering over such time waster stuff.(cld have finished up the lit essay in this time)

I need to be independent.like how we always were.it was a hard lesson the whole family had to learn together.but it made us so much stronger.but I think Im starting to depend on everything arnd me.I need the confidence back.and I will get it back.a secret promise to myself.

It's not the ending as I always thought it is.it's just another beginning.how can we move when we dun tie the ends together?

Btw, moving on to school.
Was talking to Stephanie.
It felt like making new friends again.
Learning about each other(didn't know alot of things in the past) and most importantly,finally finding a spice freak partner!LOL.

But ya.I'll elaborate another day.need to make a call now.

Ps: I didn't forget that dedication post steph.it's coming.abit delayed.lol.

Piece of shit

2010-09-29T21:47:00.001+08:00

I hate unhelpful and inconsiderate people.
I can't express it more clearly than ever.
I'm fucking hell sick and tired of sucking it in or closing one eye or whatever shit.
I hate them so fucking much.
Thank god for next yr if I do well n get into a jc of my choice.
Dun have to see any SUCKERS.
They just practically disgust me.
Just because I've quietened down prior to the examination period doesn't mean assholes like u have the fucking right to walk all over my head.
If u wanna be a self centred bitch, being so self absorbed and act like the whole world revolves around u, pls be reminded that u are so fucked up, just like the entire world. If u wanna behave in such a immature and impetous way, for fucking god's sake, go somewhere else in the world where ppl will tolerate this bullshit from u.cause honestly I can't, and it's just a matter of time before I tell it into yr face.the saddest part is that u dun even know this post is meant for u.what a great big joke.Some idiots just don't get it.

FINALLY A GIRL's LIFE

2010-09-25T23:33:00.001+08:00

so currently, my life status has been terribly monotonous the past few months.i must say i am impressed with my self discipline and it is this extremely hard up super stone-fied period that helped me to reach my targets for prelim2. anyway, ive been wanting to go out just for a meal and light shopping like FOREVER and finally i managed to do just that, sadly only for a limited period of time of 3 hours or so.but still, i appreciated it so much.for a moment, it felt like life was back to normal but O'levels pressure was still peeping at me from some hidden corner in my mind.but wtv.enjoyed my mini break from the tightly scheduled HELL ROUTINE.(:

LUNCH AT PIZZA HUT

Basil crayfish pasta

Awesome stuff.

only if u can take the spice.

SHIOK except that the pasta was done more than al dente(it was promised in the menu)

and the crayfish was HUGE.

SHOE SHOPPING!

sis n i went to CHARLES n KEITH.saw this eye catching pair of black heels.couldnt resist the fact that it looked so nice when we tried it on that my sis and i got the same pair together.have to admit that it was abit on IMPULSE.anyway, i spent the rest of the day trying it out and walking arnd in it.it definitely doesnt look that high and hard to walk in but honestly, try it to believe that my ankles were crying from the aches.i guess all the yrs spent in school walking in canvas shoes just made my feet into a pair of spoilt brats. so anyway, i was super bored that i became my own model and took countless shots at various angles.(:

simple yet fruitful hours.now back to running the last lap shit.

hwee min post 3!

2010-09-23T23:18:00.001+08:00

After all the formalities, its post part nonsense.

THE ART OF IMITATION

ok, this is for yr entertainment.try guessing who we re trying to imitate.clue: we know them too well.

Test drive

test drive 2 LOL

we re still in shock, not counted.

amirah spoiler!GO SMILE!lol.

chio-er 3!LOL XD

no one will be able to guess this.

its like little nyonya role play.

but fail.

shldnt have drunk too much,

mabo alr. XD

*HCBC, yall can guess oso!

JUMPSHOT BABY!

we ve been wanting to do this really long but after each bdae, we'll so full that gravity will act exceptionally; pulling us down each time.FINALLY.....

basically, we had like a thousand attempts before we got one.this is just a preview.

all ready! wan ping looks like she's getting ready to fly to the moon!XD

almost there; ping's legs abit long.

A FINAL GRP PHOTO

before the sun went down and time for video recordings that need CENSORSHIP BADLY.

a shoutout to 'BEGGARS' ;

IN YOUR FACE!

*many might not know the 'beggars' term.its a new definition in the HCBC word list.(:

credits to boor bamirah bte bamir for the bew BWORD!HAHAHA.oops sorry!BABABABABA.XD

super lame.

sorry.

getting more like patrick everyday.

and yeah.that marks the end of the birthdays among the 4 of us for this yr!im starting to miss all the surprise planning alr!:(

oh well, its been such a FUN year with such awesome heartfelt gifts shared among each other.LOVE every single one of u DODO, AFrican kid, and LION, k? now must study for o's alr.=.=

anyway, this is super random but saw smth quite pecuilar at the often messy hideous hipboard....

PS: AMY AND AFRICAN KID, WHERE ARE THE GAMES VIDEOS!? WANT TO GET SCOLDING IS IT!???

hwee min post 2

2010-09-21T22:18:00.001+08:00

OK THIS IS PART2; THE GIFTS SEGMENT.

ENJOY!

THE CROWNING.

HER 1ST LOOK AS PRINCESS LILY

PINK'S PRESENT!

SO OUR PRINCESS WILL SMELL NICE EVERYDAY

READY TO BATHE ALR

AMY'S TURN!

DAMN SECRETIVE,as usual

awwww.

MY TURN!!!

PRINCESS TURNS SPPECHLESS!*gasp!*

FRONT COVER OF ALBUM

ps: wanted to steal it cuz i love it!duh she said NO.:(

LILY MOVED TO TEARS ALR

THE AWESOME LALA N PO HUG!

ps: she's tearing!LOL

NICE HAPPY PHOTO

WELL, THATS ALL FOR TODAY FOLKS.

MEMORABLE LINES!

'"ok everybody, hurry hurry!lets go down!"

" WE RE WAITING FOR YOU LA!"

PS; FORGOT TO ADD IN!sorry!

hwee min post 1!

2010-09-21T00:12:00.000+08:00

whoops.candid.

as usual.african kid happy seeing CARBS.

chick vs dick RE-enactment

ps: whats with the finger?

PO's favourite segment

how the hell ppl can pop balloons i'll never know.

1.the mother hen in Amirah

2. the stupidest face i can ever give.

3. the african chicken desperately cleaning behind

SOME memorable lines:

"why do we have to clean up!?"

"have to la.later kena scold!"

"but im tired!"

"YOU RE NOT EVEN CLEANING!!!!?"

HAPPY BDAE HWEE MIN

2010-09-21T00:03:00.001+08:00

ok. HCBC's final bdae celebration ended with LIL PO's BIRTHDAY celebrations on the eve of her bdae in CEDAR. dun really wanna elaborate much cuz basically i dun really want unneccesary ppl knowing much about what was happening especially with all the intellectual copyright.lol. so mostly pictures in the coming posts. its gonna be broken up cuz the comp's like super LAAAAGGGG.

so anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY PO SWEETHEART!HOPE U ENJOYED OUR MINI CELEBRATION WITH ALL THE FUN AND R-RATED STUFFSZXZ(lol) AND MOST IMPTLY LIKE OUR AWESOME DAMN PAINSTAKINGLY DONE GIFTS!!!!LOL.ANYWAY, I HOPE U HAD A SUPERB 16TH BDAE BASH AND WELCOME INTO THE NEW WORLD OF BEING 16.

PS: no diff actually.in fact, no more subsidies at polyclinics already.=.=

picture post ppl

2010-09-07T16:07:00.000+08:00

hey everybody.as u all may realise, im a terrible blogger who blogs things a million donkey yrs after it happens but pls tolerate.thanks. its the 2nd day of sept hols, im feeling lazy so not much details, mostly pictures.
after all, a picture speaks a thousand words.so in total, the word count of this post should be about, 783209876655193340000000 words k?

snapshots from BIRD PARK!(:

reads: world's most dangerous creature, HOMO SAPIEN

Favourite bird of the show

XS wan ping

4 SEPTEMBER 2010

MUM'S BIRTHDAY!!

DINNER AT :

missy pose 1

missy pose 2

mad sister

ready to blow

dad's gift

my gift

sister's gift

and another bdae celebration is over. my mum said in 1994, she received the BEST BDAE GIFT everrr.AWWWW.i feel so touched.lol.

ya more pics in days that follow.blogger's functioning at the speed of a tortoise.pisses me off.

isnt being sixteen sweet

2010-08-28T01:01:00.000+08:00

Well, it looks like i ve finally turned sixteen officially. Yesterday was just a whirlwind with everything moving around so fast and at the end of the day, i just felt too overwhelmed.

i have alot of thank youS to tell many many awesome wonderful people who took the time and effort to celebrate this special day with me, just FOR ME.

trying my best to be in chronological order:

Thank you mummy, daddy, Beloved SISSY for competing to wish me when the clock striked 12 on the dot!it was so freaking funny to see all of yall so rushed and PUSS freaking cheated.nvm mummy, ur still 1st k?(:

Thank you HEATHER GAN HWEE MIN for the 1st wish among all my friends!!!(: i giv u trophy k!LOL.Thank you so much for the best wishes and rest assured, ill tell you who is he, where he stay, everything to YOU 1st k?anyway, yr always the 1st to know one what!hahaha

Thank you Mel, Tammy, JL, SK moomoo, Jeremy for so wonderfully spamming my tagboard. i m so grateful that yall tried yr best to be on the best behaviour and not say much nasty dirty stuff here so thank you for practising good censorship!LOL.i really appreciate yr wishes and we must stay together and get to together for events k??(:
PS ppl: nick the 'asshole' just book out one eh.dun scold him la.

Thank you to all the kind loving souls who sent in your wishes throughout the morning thru SMS, email or tagbrd!it really made my day!even though we re not very close, im really glad to have such awesome friends so THANK YOU THANK YOU!(:

moving on, THANK YOU my dear darlings, AMIRAH BTE AMIR, HEATHER GAN HWEE MIN and LOH WAN PING for the best best best best best BEST AWESOME SUPERB JAZZED UP BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION EVER!AHHHH!!!ok im going mad. it was the best bdae celebration ever and it was so fucking funny to top it all of. im so sorry i didnt shed any tears cuz my happiness tear duct is quite clogged.its my depression tear duct that is quite easy to spill and go haywire one!LOL.anyway, i was really overwhelmed and deeply touched by your INTENSIVE planning to pull everything together on 26th itself even though we were super busy with prelims!THE GIFTS WERE AWESOME, needless to say!and twister was really a good entertainment.through this i kind of guess that our coordination power needs to be improved from wp n my bdae experience! ok individual time(drum rolls) :

Noor Amirah bte Amir

AMirah.rawr.what shld i say?ur really a super different person.ok, a very unique person.never met anyone like you man.seriously!HAHAHA.ok sorry.got carried away.ANYWAY, i really really truly appreciate your gifts, especially the box of letters!its so freaking cute!and funny!haha.but yr handwriting ah, aiyoh, got room for improvement!LOL.ok sorry sorry.joking.i still love you with that kind of handwriting k?its very UNIQUE.(: oh and that photograph on the board oso.but i look quite ugly in it eh!u shld hav ask me to pose nice one wif u!HAHAHAHA.but all of them are really nice.my fellow HCBC SisTELLE.lol.i think we really are so different yet so similar that makes our friendship so very special.cannot imagine life without a kid like you!forever so AURA-fied and constantly stalked by!HAHAHAHA.i feel like im friends with a RC celeb.ok i dun think thats a title to be exactly proud of but whatever.being a celeb's still cool.LOL.AH, bottomline, LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH K?so must smile more.i will be your biggest fan k?(bigger than your stalkers pls!they re no match for me!)will SHOUT AND CHEER like MAD FOR YOU K? i really hope we can go NJC AND join 'ahem you know what'!!!!!AHHHHH!so excited!!!!(SLOPPY KISSES AND HUGE ASS HUGS!!!)

Loh Wan Ping

LWPP!!u AFRICAN kid!i think you must have sold your house, land and farm and irrigation machines to get me my gift!!!HAHAHA.your gifts are really really nice!THANK YOU SO MUCH my dept head!out of all your presents, im SO SO SO IN LOVE WITH THE MUSIC BOX!!!im such a deprived kid i didnt even know what was it!HAHA.that was truly a unique present i absolutely ADORE.haha.anyway, ms lohs, my dept head, we started off on a rocky start but we ended becoming such close buds, bonded by all the reef knots, clove hitches, bounded together by lashings and frappings and worked together to see our campfire baby turn into a SUCCESS!lol.as OA-fied it may sound, it was OA that brought all of us together and i cannot imagine life without YOU.the beloved african kid cum ANTM cum triple science kid all screwed!hahaha.and you another ONE that i wanna go school wif next yr!you can start a modelling club and ill cheer you on k!?THANK YOU MS LOH!MUACKS!XOXOXOXO

Heather Gan Hwee Min
Lily.Marie.Po.lol.i tell you, i got so many things to say that im scared i might end up writing an essay!LOL.ok must put my summary skills to work.ok.my dear LILY sweetheart.I LOVE the gift you gave me!it really touched me so deeply(even though i didnt cry) and it really means smth special and dear to me!and i realised that it starts off with a rainbow, your FAVOURITE!!hahaha.thank you for taking time to really put everything together and even categorizing accordingly to the different headings.its so SECRETARY-fied like you CAN!?and the fact that u remembered all the small details i had mentioned before that even i forgot!LOL.n yr treat makes me feel so paiseh!=.= i really really like your present alot and i cant stop looking at all the chio STICKERS and PICTURES OF JS!!!and the really nice letter at the end!haha.anyways, heather gan, we ve come a long way, literally through thick and thin and we have been thru alot to become such great BFFs.and we always will be k?love you always with all my heart!<3(A BIG FAT CUDDLY HUG and a tubby toast, just for you!i nvr give the rest eh.only you!haha.better appreciate ah!later i steal your scooter!XD)

Thank you to everyone whom i didnt mention specifically(my apologies) but your wishes are deeply appreciated.
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To my beloved clan of sweethearts, the times we spent laughing, crying, bitching, crapping is all dear memories to me and i wouldnt change anything at all in the past year or so that we had together to make it perfect cuz after all, its all the imperfections that made my life perfect. i would always love yall so very much and all of your wishes, your sounds of laughter and encouragement will stay etched in my heart forever.AND THANK YOU FOR the princess(!?) themed party!never felt more royal than ever!

HCBC, something that completes my life.

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and so, i guess i should embrace the moment of turning 16 and face the new challenges and hurdles that await me with a positive attitude and of course, never forget the the strong bonds and friendship that shaped who i am and love me for who i m on the inside.

ps: 1st time amy so fast to send the pics out so soon!XD

~TWISTER MADNESS~

physical advantage!UNFAIR.

inflexibility; a hereditary problem

these BONGS were camwhoring while wpp n i were twisting away!?

YOG twister finals CHAMPION receiving the prestigous NEWater!

royalty of TAIWAN n INDIA

a tradition

PPS: i ended up tearing in the end writing my heart out for HCBC.
i suppose yall are happy nw right!?LOL.

PPS: more pics out later!

Hey soul sister

2010-08-24T23:01:00.001+08:00

1 more paper to go.MCQ.can't wait!
Bird park awaits us anxiously.
We can't go overseas so maybe we should be tourists here.it's nice to be a tourist.snap photos of everything.wear
Sunhats, shades, backpack with impt stuff and a handy dandy MAP.lol.ya I guess it always been a "bring the bitch out of u".this is more of "bring the tourist/kid out of you".LOL.
3 ppl wished me before my bdae.I feel so touched by their accuracy.LOL.

I've learnt my wrong opinions after meeting -------.never will look at anyone in the same light ever again.cuz he's a good example to learn from.

PS:Y am I slacking away like olevels is over?

PEE-pee-ass: Ah, dun be an asshole and eat my only saturday can?sighs.famous for last minute, as usual.(:

Currently away; please leave a message

2010-08-19T21:46:00.001+08:00

Okie dokie.all the faithful souls who take time to read my wonderfully nonsense filled crap talk space, I will only resume talking nonsense here after prelim 2, 26 august.thank you for kind consideration, for now, I have lots of unfinished geog stuff to squish into my head while I'm wandering here.

FOCUS!!!!

Dental freak

2010-08-15T00:15:00.001+08:00

Heyho.my ndp photos upload are gonna take forever.apologies.

Higher mother tongue finally over!!!!!omg.it's such a burden.cause its not like the kind of subject wher u dun understand it but it's more of the kind where u think ur actually pretty good at but ppl always beat u at it.=.=ok ya whatever.it's over.

Went for my dental appointment after that.after 3 years.super embarassed but it's true.I'm so so so afraid of cedar pri's school dentist.that sadistic women who treats us like plastic lifeless specimens with no feelings at all.anyway, moving on from the tragic traumas of my dental journey, I made my way to NUH dental centre with my sister. When I entered the dental centre, I was thinking y was I so stupid to land myself in this shit when I could have like run or say that my friends kidnapped me or smth.my beloved dentist was DR HOO.and he was really reallly really NICE.I think I must have really anxious,he kept telling me to relax and told me the step by step proceedure of what he's gonna do and most imprtantly, he did not mention the classic line : ITS NOT GOING TO BE PAIN when it was actually quite painful.I just hated it when they just lie to comfort u and then screw yr mouth up.I guess it was his niceness that I kept in mind and just tahan all the discomfort.and I survived!!!all the dirt and tartar gone!(:and I had a mini cavity filled with that. But now I'm having some pain on one of my tooth.quite scared.

ah so tired alr.2/3 of SS almost done!!! Sukaasini, u can do it!!!!!jia you jia you!!!

Ps: stephie, ur post is coming soon k?(:

Prelim 2 u freak!

2010-08-12T20:40:00.001+08:00

Went to lunch at pizza hut with LILY before prelim 2!(:
She and her show luo(shall pronounce as low jus to irritate her!XD) and me about jhooti this jhooti that.can't stand it.we re like mad cows alr.and we ate till we cldnt move.cuz cannot waste food mah.so ya.we sat for hrs and slowly but surely munched down.
(u might go like y the hell did we order so much but that was what we used to eat before,when we were all more angry.I guess we needed more energy to fight la.lol)

Anyway, I heard it. I'm like oh my, quite sad actually. And can't believe bitch is like reacting the exact way we predicted her to be.errr whatever la smarty pants. Pls stop being a sore loser.FYI,we are a pretty capable bunch.ah shan't waste time on her.I guess her tiny heart just can't take it huh?but know how to act and talk big?wtv.Cbb.

Hmt paper!!!hurry come and engulf me!!!at least I won't feel guilty studying ss/geog!!!

Ps:so is it lead or zinc?I think it's lead.

Pps: we doubted the other one wrongly instead.LOL.

the NDP series

2010-08-10T23:14:00.000+08:00

adorable ISABELLE, my biggest fan(:

unintentional artistic appeal

beloved organizing chairman

awesome co-emcee, cldnt have done it without him

and my emceeing event came to an end on sat night successfully with my feet dying in my heels along the way.

Will I have the honour to have lunch with you miss

2010-08-10T21:41:00.001+08:00

Ndp post will be in soon.

"eh -, I'm bored,alone at home and hungry.

Ok wher shall we meet?

Toa payoh?I'm quite lazy.

Ok give me one hour, I'll be there.

Ok bye."

Lonely?I duno.I think I just miss someone.once in a while, I've to look back.among all the dusty old box, I take the time to go over the dust and find that photo album.that caught good memories. But after all, one must realise, it's just an album, not like I can go back.especially when the person's gone.

I'm really quite an appreciative person.but I duno what messed up my mind then.

But I won't be an ass to private my blog so that u or anybody see this or delete my beloved 'thanksgiving' post.it's memories after all whether it pricks or soothes.

Red and white?

2010-08-09T20:51:00.001+08:00

National day at Padang is AWESOME!(:
In the train now, back home!!!((:

My last ndp with cedar

2010-08-07T00:20:00.001+08:00

Heyho.today was the ndp celebration in school.mass dance was a fail.total fail in fact.nobody was in a mood to actually do that.outdoor segment!was quite excited when I saw RC contigent coming out.it felt like I was a cadet once again.remembered the time when we were like that.I felt so nervous that I felt like crying.LOL.took lots of photos with amy's cam!ESP, help her take her BAOBEIs.so nice right.then halfway, sd card full=.=aiya.this girl, nvr stock check b4 she bring her cam!ok anyway, pink got a video of it and pics of the wonderful US.(:hehe.anyway, i must give credit that NCC did really well. But I dun think we were that great sadly, but honestly.but nvm.our time's over anyway.moving on.PRIZE PRESENTATION.Amy got to go 2 times.she damn smart one ok?(for those morons who might look down on her or anything) actually we r quite mad la.we were waving the flag vigorously as if mm lee was ther but it Amy,RAH.lol. And we cheered like mad ok?like mad?we just threw our pride away and screamed like mad.and I must say, IT FELT AWESOME.really destressing.so it was good she went again.one more time!and then we felt like we were gonna hve sore throat.I think our whole body has weakened prior to stress.cuz after that, I felt really lethargic. Next indoor segment.musical.joey's a good singer(: community singing was AWESOME.Amy went mad and found juniors.ok la.once again, it brought back memories.then I must say, some assholes started to cry,honestly I was quite puzzled.like WTF.huh?WHO DIED NOW?and then it just soured the whole mood.and that led to chain crying.(not us) well I suppose at the end of the day, they got the attention they wanted. But whatever, it's really not our business la.everything's over.in fact, despite all the stress nw, i feel so much better, happier instead of squabbling everytime.real energy waster=.=
Moving on, I took a photo with HANREI!!!(: she's a super cute china scholar, and without a doubt, she's a genius and basically she's so cute!!!(: loh wan ping, u kept yr promise!LOVE UUUU!(: Ok I sound so deprived but really, I nvr had a china scholar friend and it's so different and exciting to see them and I m even more excited to get to know her.told wp, she's not our baobei anymore.it's HANrei(:HAHAHAHAHAHa.

Ok my eyes are starting to close.cont 2mr.

It's an impt event 2mr.I hope u will be ther BFG.

I think I like giants

2010-08-05T00:27:00.001+08:00

Omg omg it was somebody's bdae!!!ahhh!!!omg omg omg.such an ass.MIA so long.I guess I know y now.
Such a jerk.
But can't stop smiling once again.

Honestly, I need to watch OKTO.I need to be a kid again.but okto programs suck.so I might just end up as a sad kid; I mean sadder kid for all the recent PMSing and whatever.

But yeah, OMg.calm down.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR BFG.(:

PADANG! IM COMING!

2010-08-02T22:21:00.001+08:00

OMG!OMG!EVERYBODY, IM GOING FOR NDP 2010 AT PADANG!!!!

ok i really think it must be luck.1st, it was my birthday month so i got a cute cake and a super cute birthday card.and following that, i was praying for god to give me the ultimate bdae present, at least 1 ticket and OMG, i got it.i was hyperventilating away cuz i never thought in a million yrs that i would be that lucky one.cuz like i said previously in my posts, miracles never happened to me.i guess now i know how striking lottery feels like! so anyway, the blue ones are the one that i got while the black ones were from my dad's good luck to go to bishan's celebration party on 9 august too.omg im so happy!:) ive never been to padang before!ok so i would definitely like to thank my lucky stars a million million times.

ok some ppl might be thinking why im going mad over NDP tickets but cmon!its NDP!and at padang!the seats are very very limited and it would be a good start to prelims!:))))ah whatever,pls think what yall want.im going for NDP BABY!!!!
im praying extra tickets would just pop out somehow so that HCBC CAN GO!!!!ahhh!
still remember when izzah n i went for the 08 one together!that was another lucky yr where we got 2 blue sector n 2 VIP.(DUH we had to sit at the blue sector one.we so small fry ppl wld laugh at us if we went to the VIP one) omg i shall go find that post after blogging this.lol.

today was PMS day.while HIGH day for wpp the low.
n omg i love jhooti.
if u know what i mean.
makes me smile all day long.

spicy nuggets are the new love.

must go watch inception.
i must be the only one who hasnt seen it.
oh well, maybe this weekend.
with hmm.......

bleh.ok.need to do unseen prose now.

a lengthy post called i love

2010-07-30T23:21:00.002+08:00

~~SPORTS DAY~~.big joke.rained heavily.god HATES cedar man.it got cancelled at the end.=.= and the best part was that we were 45 mins late.shldnt have gone in the 1st place.such a waste time.i know i sound like a complete LOSER, but i would rather we had maths lessons than wasting time like that.(cant believe that i think like that.potential mugger lor!)haha.anyway, all the singing n jumping didnt really interest us so we took out homework.(i know yr frking brains are going like WTF.damn loser man.whatever.ass off.) mr sng and mr tan should be so proud of me.i was reading MSND and doing Amaths.cannot believe it.ive nvr been so serious about these 2 SUBJECTS!? anyway, the rest of the time was used condemning some cheerleading squads.no offence but really.it was AWFUL.get it?AWFUL.HIDEOUS.we could literally see up their skirts.real waste time.later some pevert grope them, they scream and shout.who ask yall to misbehave?i bet my ass they would have all gone out in their cheerleading attire.i duno y but they take it as an opportunity to show assets!??erm?u call that assets?.ur meant to have fun and cheer on your house for god's sake.definitely cant be wearing knee length skirts.but the audacity to wear such skimpy costumes that makes everyone uncomfortable?even US cheerleaders dress better.eeyeur.cldnt stand it.

oh btw, anyone who isnt exactly very happy with my comments, i am truly sorry that it doesnt bother me.the true facts of life tend to hurt sometimes and be the bitch ur supposed to be and suck it up.

anyway, we were supposed to head to nyp but instead we went to tp instead.and continued homework! and APPLE!hey apple!u keep singing yr chinese songs, make me go mad?i feel like my orange brain is gonna burst with all the juices inside churning away!HEY!lol.ok la ok la.i not so bad.anyway, we were karoke-ING poker face and attempted release me but failed.so funny!and it was so freaking cold!hello our weather is really going haywire!one day its bbqing the shit out of us and next, its freezing like mad!?lily bought tao suan and we used that our heat substitute and later we used amy's carrot cake!(much desperate as it sounds, one will understand when yr put in that situation)
i guess thats about all.poor pink cldnt join us.

im tired.

watched about 15 mins of show luo on channel U.ok la not bad.but not interested.i hope yr happy LILY!lol.

PICTURISTA!

SCIENCE LAB.

my pretty leaf in ethanol


food tests!so colourful!

FOOD AND BEVERAGE COLUMN!

my lovely orange fizz frm OLD TOWN WHITE COFFEE

LILY's PEPSI float

MCDELIVERY!

SPICY NUGGETS!FAV!!

FROSTED CHOCOLATE MALT at SWENSENS.


chocolate coated CHERRY.mmmm.

HCBC REMAKE.RAWR.

ok. i have this collection of esso cute tigers that are super old but super super cute and i took them out one day n realised that there's 4.hmmmm.sounds like trouble huh?

i did a photoshoot with them.and they do have model potential and cute chio eyes, especially the white one(blue eyes....LILY's weaknessXD)

such similiarity and coincidence occur rarely and hence should be admired and appreciated.

RANDOMNESS from the past.

cuppycakes for my LOVEs

my bffs back home.so cliquish.=.=

i might get a tight slap frm amy when she sees this but chill.laugh it off.energy waster only.

my fucked up face as SOME like to say.(SOME!u noe who u r!)

bloody gan gave me a fright when i took this picture.

HAHAHAA.(nt gonna tell yall what im laughing for!go figure yrself if yr smart enough or dumb enough to even ponder over it!)

okie dokie.thats all for now.adieu.

PS: waka waka eh eh.

Maybe next time

2010-07-28T22:26:00.001+08:00

Fighting and fighting.more fighting.
It was alright to live by myself(not physically) for so long but why does it hurt now? I pray that I can get on this phase cuz after that, it's really mine, all mine this time around.
I hate the fact the support and encouragement always go to the one who is the least appreciative.
Praying and praying.does it really help?cause I'm starting to lose faith bit by bit.

Today was ok.but I just dun have the mood to blog it down.

I need a pillow to cry on.cause I dun have a shoulder beside me.

My self convo

2010-07-27T22:21:00.001+08:00

Today someone touched me deeply.
A stranger.a complete stranger.
Someone I didn't want to be aqquainted with in any way.
In fact, someone I despised.
That someone said something that made my day.
Something, i came to realise, that even my parents don't take time to say.
It was something that sent a spark through my mind, like as if all the weariness and mental stress just instantly tamed down.
It was impactful and it was the last person I ever expected to hear it from.
She said, " I'm sure you can do it, definitely!" when I told her my dream JC.
Much anti climax it may bring about, it is my school librarian.
She is new and I didn't like her.didn't. She has a regime of her own.very different from the previous one.in fact, the library has become much quieter nowadays thanks to her assertiveness.hated her voice,hated the look she gave,hated almost everything.
I'm a prejudiced embarassed soul.
Now, my perspective has changed and I'm deeply sorry for all the wrong assumptions I made.i finally saw her as a human being with goodness in her rather than a nasty grim librarian.
People might perceive this to be some minute insignificant thing that this messed up teen sees such philosophy in.
Well, it made time stop for a minute and set me thinking, re energising my morale, my esteem.I felt so happy that SOMEONE in this world, besides Me, thought I can make it.and the irony is that she was the last person I ever expected it from. Anyway, I guess she'll never know the impact she has brought about but thanks anyway, ms librarian.(:

Maths has messed up my brain.tuition was painful but important.revise sukaasini, revise.for god's sake, stop thinking so much and get to action.there's not much time left you know.are you serious about where you wanna go?how you want to lead your life?do you just want to give up without giving yourself a chance?if not, y so inconfident?pick yourself up and move, we dun have much time. And dun forget to clear the mess you ve left.

2010-07-25T23:51:00.001+08:00

Disappointment.

Next,emcee rehearsal!they said I was good for a first timer!haha.so happy!gonna attempt to memorize my lines!

Balloting for ndp tickets!woohoo!I'm praying real hard....there's nth more I want than to support my country!!!ahhh!(Omg.sound so patriotic.)but ya!I wanna go!!!!(:badly!I duno y cuz Ive been quite a few times but I still wanna go again!!!(:

Omg.people.pls pray for me that i will be the CHOSEN ONE. XD

MONDAY BLUES.tell me about it=.=

Saturday night

2010-07-24T21:51:00.001+08:00

In swensens now.
With my sis.
To eat sundae.
Saturday night supper.

I was talking to SOMEBODY(lol) on the phone last night.till 230.cldnt tahan anymore after that.so sleepy.especially after a damn good and greasy Friday night meal with my parents.haha.so fattening.but ya.
but there was this thing troubling me and I had to get it off my chest.actually till now it's bugging me but I know I must remain calm.and composed.like an old man.i need the answer to the questions soon though.i feel like my head's gonna burst.

Ps: I hope yr coming.

I've got 5mins

2010-07-22T19:15:00.001+08:00

I've 5 mins on my hands now.
Heard about the loss.
It was a terrible shock.
I couldn't imagine myself in that situation.
It would tear me down.
But these girls are strong.
I really hope god would give them the strength to get through the darkest time of their live and move on.
Why must such traumatising things happen?
Why must one be deprived of a complete family?
Maybe one day I should try sitting under the bodhi tree and hope I'll get an answer for one of the most challenging questions by mankind, that has always been unanswered.

Is this annoying?

2010-07-20T19:01:00.001+08:00

DESPICABLE me in 3D was AWESOME TTM!(:

It was the cutest movie we have seen in a long while.love Steve carell's accent.and he's such a sweet daddy.and of course our AGNES CUTIEPIE.but I must admit that she can be annoying that even GRU's dog's terrified of her!HAHAHA.and not forgetting VECTOR.wth.omg.his name.it's the best.and he's like I'm no longer the uncool Victor, hello, VECTOR's not really much cooler!hahaha. But I suppose the story is abit too farirytale like.I know every thing's like make believe like the ADORABLE minions but there's no proper sustained climax.I guess it's really meant to be a lighthearted movie.it's just me who is overly serious.

Anyway, lily and I went to manhattan's fish market for lunch.no doubt the waitress was rude.and inconsiderate.nevertheless, we enjoyed the food by pretending she nvr existed and secretly prayed that she would vapourise the next instant.after that, we went mini shopping and we got ourselves 2 chio iPhone covers for 8 bucks each!I suppose that's pretty good with many nice covers going for 10- 20 bucks.I'm pretty happy and satisfied with mine(:

Well, time to do some chemistry.(:

Me, I love you

2010-07-19T17:04:00.001+08:00

Defensive.manipulative,argumentative.just bring it on. I know I created that hard cemented huge ass wall.but maybe I can't trust anyone.it's so hard to trust when every shed of credibility is ripped off like pages in a book just instantaenously in a split second.I secretly pray everyday subconsciously that the only trust I've laid upon the most dearest to me will never break it. I dun want to be a hypocrite while I still am in control.I can't just smile and pretend everything's ok.it's just not me anymore.I think my code of conduct has changed dramatically 2 by 2 years.sucking everything up, bleh ing everything out.I'm confused.which one m I really?u or u or wait, u.where was the me I thought well of?where was the me who could sleep in peace every night. Maybe I didn't lose me.it's just inside but in hiding.cuz I dun want me. I think I dislike me cuz she has weaknesses in herself.I only take me out when it's time for fun stuff. Actually,I'm so protective of me.I dun wan me to see the real world.the cruel reality.I want to hide me from all that so that when I'm sad, I can turn to me and let only happy memories run of her.me.she matters so much after all.but there can only be one me.and when m I ever going to trust me enough to let her out to start her own life, and live her own destiny?me,a part I'm yet to discover more about.

2010-07-17T15:16:00.000+08:00

Ok.it has been exactly a week since our dear wendy loh's birthday.i know its 7 days late but even if its late, it comes with the latest scoop!(: ok stop crapping.lets come to wpp's birthday celebration.
ok wendy loh's bdae was supposed to be a SURPRISE.but she ruined it herself.so idiotic right?lol. we lied to her that we were meeting juniors for fd stuff so it is REALLY REALLY impt that she, as the asst. head should be ther for her dept.so smart of us rite??LOL.but we were quite scared that she might accidentally approach one of them and ask what time they meeting us and that would completely blow our cover.but luckily she nvr la.i guess we kind of over reacted on fri morning alr cuz none of us went to flec b4 flagraising cuz we need to hide our gifts from her.(especially mine) i guess she know alr la.but it was quite nice of her to play along.haha. so anyway, we had a tough time trying to distract her away and blah blah while we took the gifts and logistics down to the canteen while we packed her away for remedial.during her remedial, i smsed her to text me when she was done; that means the moment when yr dismissed.this girl, really so annoying, came down to the 1st level opp. the canteen and smsing me she was done. and she walked past the area we hid to light up the candles on the cake, blowing everything up.so irritating.but luckily she didnt see what we really brought. so we sang dear wendy the TRADITIONAL, CONVENTIONAL birthday song cuz honestly, the cedar one irritates the shit out of me.
and she was so moved cuz she didnt know we'll get her a cake.(my mum lovingly made it for her.), FOLLOWING THAT, was bottle opening, surprise lunch sponsered by us, gifts, heartwarming hugs,dirty talk(SO EMABARASSING), crapping, playing, screaming,yelling, smacking wan ping, scolding her for foiling our plans,chilling at the school lib, thinking of burning the school down with a lighter, chilling at the library, and loving wan ping.(:

so cutting all the words, the picture post follows behind.

(cldnt put it together cuz blogger was being a BITCH.)

PS: i got u the biggest present cuz i love you the most.HAHA.

loh wan ping, this is for you

2010-07-17T15:05:00.000+08:00

hui sian n wendy

ms loh's bottle opening

our signature YAM SENG.

the final bottoms UP.(:

FOOD TIME!

PRESENTING THE PRESENTS.

lily with her SIXTEEN magazine spread of the famous wendy loh

inside the magazine.....

how the hell lily can come up with such ideas i nvr know.but THANKS.:D

i nvr knew about this

known fact.LOL

surprising...

next up

MY TURN!(:

cutest, most adorable, huge ass DOGGIE. just for wendy.

latest addition to the family, PICO sweetheart.

not forgetting....

a personalised card!(:

LAST, but DEFINITELY, not the least...

drumrolls

AMIRAH!:)

opening

still opening.wp can be such a spoiler at times.LOL

AND TAADAA!(finally)

a trophy!!!!(:

READS:

LOH WAN PING

BEST timer for FDC 2010

BEST VHFD in CRCY

this is my FAVOURITE PRESENT OF ALL.wanted to just take and run!LOL.im such a fan of wendy k!?

and of course some sentimental personal touches to the final present.(:

the sixteen year old virgins

not forgetting the

the ~~sixteen~~,going to be sixteen year old virgins!

the oh-so-loving masterminds

a happy little family.(:

PLAY TIME!

wan ping and her CORK.

(ps: love amy's face XD)

sparklers! i know its still bright but we hav curfews like other 16 yr olds.

amy so happy with her sparkler and that lighter of hers

candid shot.LOL.look like want to fight.

moral:dun judge amy by her face. XD

youngest member of the clan.POPPOPO.(:

not forgetting the birthday girl

wan ping has model potential in her, especially physically so an in prompt to photoshoot while the sparklers are lit.

cmon wendy, u can do it!POSE!

whats up with hand?nigel's not gonna be happy....

hmmm.creativity.the judges like that.LOL.

wan ping; our ANTM model.(:

back to being sixteen

RANDOMNESS

our way of ending the celebration....

SUPER RANDOM BUT NICE

THIS WAS LIKE TAKEN WHILE WE WERE CHILLING ON THE BEANBAGS OF THE LIBRARY.THE ONLY PLACE TO GET FOC AIR CON!XD

AND SO THIS PICTURISTIC AWESOME POST CONCLUDES WITH A HAPPY HCBC EVENT.

JOINTLY ORGANISED BY THE SCHOOL FACILITIES.

SPECIAL THANKS TO HUI SIAN AND LILY'S FRIEND FOR HELPING SNAP SOME PHOTOS.

MAIN ORGANISERS: SUKAASINI D/O LATCHUMANAN, NOOR AMIRAH BTE AMIR, HEATHER GAN HWEE MIN FOR

loh wan ping, OUR DEAREST BABE.(:

Tsunami

2010-07-17T13:01:00.000+08:00

this might be the ultimate challenge for blogger cuz wpp's bdae post is gonna hav 53 pics.good luck blogger baby!(:

Another TGIF pOst

2010-07-16T23:26:00.001+08:00

Well, Thank god it's Friday, again.the sense of accomplishment, regrets of wasting time,the temporary peace and quiet that 2mr's a day of our way.

Today was hmm.no words to describe la.cuz ther were ups and downs and basically I'm pretty lazy to think of describing.feel lik it's killing my brain cells that way.LOL.

Anyway, main highlight was leaders invest la.I think our dear vp...I duno.I feel like she shldnt have said some things.it just made everyone so uncomfortable.leaving that aside, our baby Amy was oso marching in for the cca leaders part.so proud of her lor.we were screaming like mad.as if I saw jay Sean live or smth.hahaha.as in ya.we scared she cldnt see us so must stand out mah. N of cuz she look so cute, no need to say one.but today, alot of ppl had fucked up faces on.like wth.i finally realise what these darlings meant when they keep telling me that I HAV A FUCKED UP EXPRESSION often.lol.so ya.omg and the 1st aid kit.aiyoh.ppl were laughing!!!hahaha.ah nvm la.
Then of cuz ther was this sense of sadness as well.I can't mention anything but oh well, sometimes, in fact many a times, many blessings are often in a form of disguise(:
Moving on, after school.study.go mad.study.go mad.study.go mad.eat.talk to helium balloons.study.laugh and go mad.see pests.Amy goes mad.attempts to stop her.

and tht was the summarized closure of school day.

I duno y but y weren't we like that b4?but y did everything have to change as well.

Sometimes, I feel I can't recognize u.I can't even remember u.wher's the real YOU?

African lion.mermaid.bleh.
Hehe.insider joke.dun mind.

PS: I didn't know she had FRIENDS.oops

Hope?

2010-07-13T23:16:00.001+08:00

To hope under the most extreme circumstances is an act of defiance that permits a man to live his life on his own terms.
It is part of the human spirit to endure and give a miracle a chance to happen.

-Jerome groopman

I nvr thought of hope in that light b4.and that we actually have a part in letting miracles happen.i always thot it would land on our laps, once in a thousand yrs.

So have hope.
I hope that everything will be ok.(:

2010-07-13T22:58:00.001+08:00

I took a good look at myself in the mirror and I realise how BLACK I AM.WTF.when an Indian gets into the sun, they dun get tanned,we look like we've been burnt.=.=i should hav thot of sunblock yesterday morning.but it's too late now.ever since we stepped down,I've been like 'dodging' the sun whenever I can to make sure I can go back to attaining my actual skin colour I came into cedar with.and now i'm back to square 1.i can't believe how smart I can get at times.

And U.I dun even know u but it affects me like crap.pls dun talk, smile or laugh anymore.it really sends an impact over n over again.

And You.thanks for leaving without a Bye.it really shows alot of what you think.well I'm definitely not like you so here: good luck and all the best!
Honestly, I hope we never meet again.i thot it was a blessing to have known someone like you.but I guess it was a nightmare and it still is.thanks for all the friendship talk crap.pls learn to practise what you preach.it might help u gain a few points there.never here.

I really duno y I'm like so fussed up over issues.like y?I thought insignificant things dun matter but it's like a tiny fish bone in your throat that's not life threatening but never leaves u in peace.and I think I'm mad to have liked the 'fish bone' once.maybe before it decided to stay in my throat and prick the shit outta me.

And hg.she's gonna quit CPB.at first I was like HUH!?u siao ah!?my honest opinion would be against it but oh well, I know the shit you ve been through so if it really makes it u feel more relaxed,then ok.I'll still love u and adore u as my ideal prefect councillor forever and ever and ever!(:

Y do I keep smiling when it hurts so much?maybe I'm so used to playing along.

I'm loving it

2010-07-12T11:55:00.001+08:00

This weekend starting from Friday has been a super super hectic weekend.

1st of all,apologies wan ping for yr bdae posts not out yet cuz I'm the guilty one holding on to the photos and haven't sent to anyone yet!sorry!
And now that's bcuz my dumb phone hanged itself on fri and I didn't know and no matter how much I charged it, it just refused to turn on and so my loving lovely dad brought me to com centre to get it fixed on sat..after I got it back, in an impulse(yet again), I decided I should still chiong to the BBQ so ya.it was ok.no photos on that.it was just so Awkward so let's just leave it as that.(:

And I didn't wish wan ping the loh on her bdae!!!:((((I know!how can I be such a bitch right??but since we were celebrating like mad on fri, I COMPLETELY FORGOT HER REAL BDAE IS THE NXT DAY!
I'm sorry miss loh.it was really unintentional.:(

Moving on, I was so damn freaking tired on sat so DUH no time to send photos again.=.= and I had to wake up at 8 the NEXT MORNING to rush to the temple and then to the 3-on-3 bb tournament.(:
I was quite surprised that the turnout was actually this huge.but oh well.the hot sweltering sun just sucked the energy out of me and I was of cuz BBQed on the way, running to and fro from the scoreboard.and then,this bb team, so asshole,came and questioned my score calculation and they called the referee and duno what.and guess what!HA!they were all wrong.haha.I was so freaking scared that I was going to get it big time.but ya.and the rest of the time was spent viewing the game and at the end, all the wonderful male species had left leaving the majority of girls to do the cleaning up, AKA manual labour!?I was so tired I ended up slacking in the office.(I know I'm such an ass)but overall, I think it was nice to see the event turn into a success!and I guess all that hardwork was also bearable since everybody chipped in.(:

Next world cup,IM SOOOO FREAKING HAPPY SPAIN WON!!HAHAHAH.since the start, I rooted for Spain and every damn right soul I knw kept condemning me.(I hope u zip that overly large hole of yrs now) and when they got into the finals, people KEPT saying that Spain is no fight to Holland.wth.did y'all watch the game yesterday?u shld have seen and better take whatever u said back.I agree Spain really lacked the skill to score goals and their goalkeeper was the saviour every single time holland attempted to score but they had good ball pocession.and I really liked this game overall cuz everyone on overall was nicer to each other.I remember watching the finals last time(I duno which one.dun ask) between brazil and somebody and they were so rough towards each other as if they were sworn enemies.I know there's great conviction to really attain the world cup and do your ctry proud but their violent behaviour to each other was just too much.unlike yesterday when they actually picked each other up even though it might not exactly be sincere or whatever shit.and the REFEREE was sooooo COOL!!!he was so firm and strict, I really wldnt want to get on the bad side of him.he cld kick me out of south Africa for the physique he had. And it was really sad to see the holland guys so upset but oh well there can only be one winner, SPAIN!!!(:ahhh!and poor torres, he had some underlying injury.):and David villa,so goodlooking as long as he doesn't open his mouth.

And yeah,I was so tired by all the action this weekend that I'm resting at hme now.(:haha.that's me.

And somebody broke my heart.I guess it happens.should just suck it up and move on.but it's so hard.__.

~SPAINSPAINSPAINSPAINSPAINSPAINSPAIN~

Oh that's so sad miss

2010-07-08T22:04:00.001+08:00

Ok.I just came back from a meeting and I'm so tired and lazy.
Post feelings of eclipse still lingering.(:
I think it was so awesome can?anyway,I really found out alot today.about many things.

1st, everyday I wake up go to school, hoping to mind my business, not be mean and bitchy to anybody and just hang out with my clan(whoa sound so man.EECLIPSSE!!)but ther are ppl who irritate and irritate and irritate and IRRITATE THE SHIT OUTTA ME that I end up becoming a big bad bitch.as in walao.be humble and modest.especially when you re not that great.that's the most ironic part.and so extra and so busybody and so irritating.really cannot tahan.and I didn't know the others felt the same way.until now.HAHAHA.but ya.some ppl are so idiotic.

Next next.omg poor response to recognition day.LOL.it's quite funny everything disintergrates so easily.
oh well,u reap what u sow.
And we dun really give a damn.
I'm so glad the WE re still close buds.((:

Maths remedial was so depressing AGAIN.I duno y, I feel damn mood out at the end of it.anyway, it was quite fun cuz TP and myself were working as a team to finish the freaking ws asap so we cld run.

Excited for 2mr.I wonder what they really want to say.or maybe it's just about US.(:

Eclipse ecilpse eclipse!

2010-07-08T00:33:00.001+08:00

Ok today Amy,lily and myself were impulsive ppl and went to watch eclipse( coz eclipse is like once in a million years?)ya.it's kind of like a lame joke but ya.

And I'm warning all those assholes who said the movie sucked, pls fucking go hang yrself to the nearest tree can?the plot is average.the fights are pretty nice.the scenes with Jacob; timeless.the scenes with Edward; ok la not bad.the fact that he's more than a century old just freaks me out time and again.newest interest:xavier samuel; riley the new born.(: the pack of wolves; wow.so man I tell u. Jane and Alice; even more man.LOL. But ya,overall we were screaming and smiling.it's like all in a package.
Favourite line: admit it, I AM HOTTER than you.

HAHAHA.that was a literary device in the movie.u see, so educational.

All in all: eclipse is so far the best movie out of all 3.a must watch.it's like the only movie I feel like watching again. Anyway, despicable me is also coming out, in 3D somemore.damn cute.the fact that he wants to steal the moon!?must go watch.that will once again I suppose will be on impulse.

We have been real busy lately.

Ps: ruff ruff is the only clue.

P.p.s: once again, due to overwhelming emotional rollercosters, we forgot to snap photos!:'( loh wan ping, better bring ur camcorder ah.

It's finally Friday

2010-07-03T00:17:00.001+08:00

Today was like hmm.
We got bac our report books.=.=

Honestly, so whatever.maybe ppl should be taught to do something right instead doing what everyone think is right.you ve gt a great team behind u miss.i guess I'm the making of her.moral: shld really do some changes on myself so i dun end being an annoying piece of shit like her.

Anyway,leaving this aside.u know ppl are starting to make me bitch again.lol.as in dun b so annoying can?it's really like cannot tahan alr that I just end up spilling everything to am n hg(mercury!)XD just leave me alone.it's all about me now and I really dun intend to make new friends and relationships now,with like prelims on the way!? And besides, I hate people who try to be smth they re not.if ur bad,be bad; dun act.if ur dorky, so be it.show others it's ok to be a dork and that u feel great inside.and most importantly:
If yr not 'cool', (I feel the term is so uncool.irony._.)then nvm la.try so hard end up looking like a complete loser.
I like being myself.and I love ppl who accept me for who I am.3 dodos.(HEARTS).i dun HAVE TO listen to the same music as them.I dun have to have the SAME sense of STYLE; nothing.all u need is to have a heart to care.everytime I'm in trouble,they help me out somehow.and vice versa.unlike some who exist just to abandon ppl.=.=

Oh anyway, today NMP,mr vishwanath came to give a talk.it seems he is the one who said smth in parliament and MM LEE like commented abt that.anyway,he was talking about race and the stereotypes of each race in spore.and HCBC is like the perfect representation of Singapore.we have Indian, Chinese, Malay.because the Chinese race is the majority, we represent with 2 Chinese.(:so cute.and then, we actually gt one more, but that one was like against spore's aims, lyk maybe liked communism or smth so off that one went.

After school, we went to the library, ended up slacking on the beanbags!so comfy!(((:anyway, I miss mdm heng.the new librarian is like soooo UNFRIENDLY.she doesn't have a pleasant face and speaks louder than us and stares at ppl when they come into the lib.as if she owns the place.so annoying.wonder where they got her from.but heck care.we re leaving soon.

We went to ya kun today after my piano.haha.I really love their toast.even though it's really not worth it.

I want to go sentosa.and take lots of pictures.of hcbc on the island!haha.I duno what kind of want that is but ya.

2010-07-01T17:53:00.001+08:00

Eclipse is out today!!!woohoo!(:omg.quite excited.actually to be honest, the movie sux but erm...we still want to go...must be supportive fans of upcoming Hollywood stars.XD

ANYWAY, heather am n I are in the same class for our sciences now!!!((: and ms heather gan is my table partner!hahaha.actually we are like matured kids so it's no longer true that girls get noisy when u put them with their bffs.u see, we were so well behaved today.cldnt take it.I was like 100% paying attention.it feels like a new fresh start.I duno y.when it's actually nearing the ending.ah whatever.but I like this new class WAY BETTER(: I may b prejudiced whatever shit.but who cares.

I duno y but today's maths remedial made me so depressed.it was 2 freaking hours to start off with.=.=and Nora was gone for oral so I got nobody beside to complain and complain and it's quite nice to complain to her la.she just takes it in and doesn't rebutt that's hw everyone must be like.

Ive realised I'm a good listener,when it comes to people's problems, complains and not forgetting gossips.but I just can't listen to teachers.is that selective hearing?but I'm not even properly aware that I'm 'selecting'!?ah.shldnt kill my brain cells over this. Tuition later._.

1st day of the term!!!

2010-06-29T00:45:00.001+08:00

Ok I've had like much undone hmwk and now I'm finally in bed comfortably.(:
Today was quite fun actually.
1st day of school term is always the nicest day every year!
We had SS LEVEL lecture!and mrs lim once again kind of scolded us.but it's ok I guess.we know her well.her bark's definitely worse than her bite.
Recess was quite disappointing.the Indian stall closed down!!that means we can't have Rojak together on THURSDAYS!!the auntie is really slow in serving but at least the food was edible.duno which bitch cld hav lodged a complaint.
Anyway, we saw s.l.u.t once again today with a new hairdo, erm,the hairstyle heather n wpp had in P5.oh well.if she loves it and feels trendy, so be it(: it sure keeps us entertained.

Went out with beloved Izzah after school!haha.so long since we had a meal together!the last time was like b4 prelim 1, in April when we stepped down.ok it's not that long but it feels long.we went to my frequent haunt,PIZZA HUT.
Pizza hut should have some discounts or cards for loyalty customers like me.i think half of my allowance for the past yrs has like been invested in the franchise.i should be a stakeholder.:P

and I bought a load of famous Amos cookies to stock for the week as bites during school in response to the delicious mouth watering food the canteen serves every day.(u r a complete moron if u cldnt sense the sarcasm.)

Moving on, ECLIPSE IS OUT ON 1ST JULY!!AHHHH!!omg.cannot take it.but we intend to be spoilers and go a week or so after release cuz nowadays, Taylor has become 2nd in our hearts!LOL.Hwee min has her SHOW SHOW SHOW and I'm currently into jay Sean.(I know it's a bit slow but I was P3 when he 1st became a hit in the UK.I liked pink stuff and stickers then.and btw, he's still a big deal in US now so still not so bad)

Hmmm.I was so hardworking.did extra qns on integration.(:well it's a good start.

Saturday lunch

2010-06-26T13:15:00.001+08:00

i just had tuition in the morn.so sleepy.but since everyone's out, i decided to make my own lunch!:) i LOVE to eat prawns,regardless the way its done.but peeling and de-veining the prawns has been like so EWw for me.but today, i broke out of the EWwness and wore some gloves and peeled them.and in the end, i made my cheesy shrimpful PASTA!!!!!

and here's the result:

one of my creations close to SUCCESS.(:

ahahahaha.whats so funny

2010-06-19T00:01:00.000+08:00

todays been DIFFERENT.(:
i was reading some of my pri sch classmates' blogs.especially the posts that were written in 2006.i was OMG, i was there!lol.but frm all that, i saw who i was.a nobody.insignificant nobody.and its so funny how ive changed.how everything has changed.in fact ive more guts.thinking of all the shit yrs back, im like DAMN, i shld have told that bitch off.haha.but ya.my mouth n my vocab has grown ALOT too i must say.haha.bad influence, whatever shit.(:its like thers some unfinished business hanging there.like how i wish to tell my teacher,
"you god damn fucking racist.argumentative my ass.yes.ive come to realise im full of it.maybe i had guts then.it just didnt come out.how you wished i'd fall.it sucked to see your PETs crumble of the pressure huh?how you fucking hell picked on me."

haha.but who cares already.moving on(:

more nostalgia.....
i was looking at the snapshots taken at england.haha.it may not be the prettiest ones but the happiest, best photographs i would have ever taken, genuinely.the views and everything,so breathtaking.my sister will be going to england nxt yr.i was planning to accompany her.while she goes for summer school, i can go on a tour ALL OVER AGAIN!!!(: moreover, when i looked at all the photographs, i didnt hate them for a moment.it was like going back, reliving all the times we had, laughing and talking full scale crap.maybe cuz such happiness made it hurt so much with disappointment that it was tears before fury.haha.heather gan, remember yr bio lesson became my belting out pouring session!?i guess it was like when one door shut itself tight, another one opened.(:

moving on, i was on youtube.for all those who duno the indian actor, surya, nvm.he's just this real famous actor who became a super hot person suddenly.so i was clicking on the song mvs and read the comments.and its soooo funny.ppl are lik fighting away.and then came the best part.this guy, must be some over the top bitch la,honestly.he comment,
'hi surya here.thanks for all your support......blah blah blah......jo would be back to act.......'

im lyk pls la bro.stop the shit can.and his name is the best.100% cannot be the real dude can??even i, a-not-so-good-with-tamil-films-person can see thru his shit.and i was realli surprised nobody thrashed him or anything.maybe cuz they did sumthing better.THEY JUST IGNORED HIS COMMENT TOTALLY n continued commenting on the vid!LOL.felt so sad for him, actually his name is the one that blew his cover.poor dude.

well yeah. anyway, my mum and i hav been going on friday night dates!HAHA.so cute right?some mum daughter bonding.the last time my mum gt drunk on ya kun toast and iced lemon tea!HAHAHA.so cute la she.i think she was very happy that day cuz she had time to knit and look at small children play and go out wif ME.LOL.but ya.today we went to coffee bean and bought PURE VANILLA ICE BLEND and CARAMEL COFFEE ICE BLEND.i was so greedy i forgot to take picture.=.=but ya.my dad was ther too, surprisingly.

OMG.THANK GOD, we re not going 2mr.i really praise god for making it as such.we honestly dun have time to waste being ostracised and critisised.we do have a life of our own and it damn right doesnt revolve being treated like dirt.at least we can continue with our SAT morning breakfast dates!((((:

PICTURE POST!AGAIN!!!

2010-06-18T23:17:00.001+08:00

AT VIVO STARBUCKS yesterday.CARAMEL FRAPPE.it just surpasses coffee bean and whatever McCafe shit.AWESOME.
i think its so ._____. to stir the whip cream into the drink.its like getting a chendol drink.
whip cream is fattening.and u still paid money for it.so might as well taste the fat as it travels down the throat into the tummy to finally turn into fats that u doubt u can burn off in time.(:

MY LOVELY SIS forever on the phone.i think starbucks is like her second hme.

Vivo

2010-06-17T19:31:00.001+08:00

I'm at VIVOCITY.starbucks.so exhausted.
CARAMEL FRAPPE.((:
I still haven't seen anything Nice.
Fcuk.

2010-06-16T19:54:00.001+08:00

i saw this pic in the wallpapers APP.its quite cute la.so ya.
i think they make the best best BFFs.(:

PICTURE POST!

2010-06-16T19:48:00.003+08:00

so bored.all ive got so far during the hols.
i bought these at DIVA!!!!
LOVE DIVA!

ABSOLUTELY LOVE this ring.there was only one left so, whats there to do than grab it off the shelf!?

DIVADIVADIVADIVA

A controversial comment by mr PM across the causeway

2010-06-15T20:06:00.001+08:00

I don't know if anyone read the papers today, in the prime news section but there's an article named, "Malaysian Malays might kowtow to others if...". That article was actually pretty humourous, if u look at it.
The article actually is about him, the ex malaysian prime minister giving a speech pertaining to 'fears among some in the community that Malays will lose their dominant status in Malaysia, especially with the increasing influence of opposition coalition...and it's focus on multiracialism'.(quoted from straits times)

Leaving aside the contradictions that I observed from the few quotations by the reporter of Dr Mahathir's speech,what was eye brow raising was his comment on Singapore Malays; and practically the government.
As quoted from the papers, " The position of the Malays(in Malaysia) is in deep crisis and precarious. If they do not think deeply and act wisely, one day, we could become like Malay singaporeans, a group without power who have to terbongkok-bongkok(towkow) before others".

The immediate reaction would be 'excuse me sir, but are you sure you want to say that?'
Some might feel that it's really not my business, as a non-Malay to comment on this but as a Singaporean, And as a minority race, who is probably in the same boat as the Malays in Singapore, I do have some opinions to share.

( if ur alr pissed off, u should just turn off yr comp and probably play neopets or some lame game.)

Anyway, moving on, in the later part of the article, he went to compare the Malays on both sides of the causeway and said " this is the fate of minorities- when we are weak, we are controlled by others".

I really duno where to start actually.if you re concerned about the unity of your racial group and you re actually taking time to address it, good for you.cuz not many people would actually take time to do much about it.but instead of focusing on advising them, why drag other people, other countries into it?and why say such mean things about the Malays who live in Singapore?saying that they have to towkow to 'others'?saying that they are 'weak'?they might not be superior(all minorities arent) but are most importantly equal in the eyes of law and justice and practically almost in anything and anywhere in Singapore.
Each racial group is highly respected and highly regarded as a valuable asset in singapore and most importantly everyone's living happily and peacefully understanding one another.yes, we do have extremely strict laws to abide by, and at times, many feel that it's so sian and so unreasonable but nobody actually tries to oppose it cuz maybe in their hearts, people know that this strict law may actually be useful in constantly improving singapore as an internationally well recognized democratic country with many established recognized achievements.more importantly, they know that the government actually imposes such laws for a reason.

Honestly, I can't comment much but I think maybe Malays in Singapore might also beg to differ on the comments that were made about them.

When everyone's constantly comparing themselves to Singapore saying that singapore is a country to learn from, for example, during the preparation time for the Olympic games in china, one of the officials mentioned during a press conference that Singapore is a role model that everyone should look upon whether their economic prosperity or political stability, there we are, compared in a negative light and putting certain races down at the same time.
I don't really think that's a very nice thing to say of your neighbour.even though we might just be a dot, people shouldn't under estimate us.even if people do not support or agree to the way Singapore is run, we should make comparisons based on real accurate statistics instead of comparing just 'successes' of this and that with no proper numbers to substantiate anything.similarly like how I, personally dun exactly agree to parts of his speech of the worry that meritocracy might actually be more of a worry than a relief, I dun disagree to it openly to any sort cuz I dun exactly have any tables or statistics to prove and say that his judgement is wrong or right in any way.

I guess we should learn to respect one's opinions and especially one's feelings.(:

" -quoted from straits times

PS: FYI,some Malaysians travel across the causeway everyday to attend school or work.I don't think they come here cuz the chances of success here is equal or lower.

On impulse 24/7

2010-06-14T15:34:00.001+08:00

My blog's been in coma for days.just didn't feel lyk typing anything._.
Anyway, let's Start with flag day.
It's the last flag day as part of RC.well I am pretty happy.(:
We chose the location, toa payoh. And let me tell u, my choice of locations are like spot on.no offence, but going to orchard and city hall is seriously getting u noe where.cuz majority are rich ass or miser fied.they wldnt bother to stop and even take out their purse while the thought of the GSS sale is wondering thru their minds.honestly, i wld do the exact same if i were at orchard.a residential area is much better with middle class people who are not so high up in the head and would at least hesitate to stop even if they dun really feel like donating. But yeah.I was just cursing whoever who didn't want to donate(since it was fr the spore heart foundation),
Those of you who dun donate, dun cry and pray so hard when you are down, bedridden with some heart disease.

But of cuz i can't say that to the face.=.=

But yeah.the slackest flag day.I think girls are better at this.the trick is to have a sympathetic face.not a damn sian face.instead look weary and tired and it might add to the sympathy points to make people stop and go ' let's just donate to this girl.'

I like amk hub.
And I bought a sketchbook.
Cuz I always doodle on whatever scrap paper or important stuff so why not just delegate an area to doodle tht wld add up to be of memories as well?(:
And yes, i'm enjoying the moment of doodling.(((:

Moving on, what else?
I went to enquire about Polariod cameras and the pink one was sitting on the shelf,only at $98!

I want an iPad.I was watching the coporate video and I love it!(:

OMG.I completely forgot.
On impulse,
I blinged my front of my phone.
And I cldnt resist but ended blinging my:
-pen
-sharpener
-stapler
-eraser

I am sketching a design to bling my powder cover!(:

Hmmm.moving on to life.I've like seemed to have lost interest in everything.the Internet, blogging, SMS, msn, iPhone,TAYLOR LAUTNER and the list goes on. The only thing which is surprising is that I'm so inclined to playing the piano so often.I've like seemed to have forgotten it for so long and now I'm actually starting to appreciate the music and closure to any feelings and opinions I have.it's fun.composing shit ass tunes with crazy chords and naming them with crazy funky out-of-the-world names.

Right now wherever I go, whoever I see:
OLEVEL1000X.
=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=

Well this is for you, miss.

2010-06-10T16:06:00.001+08:00

Some people can just be such a bitch.
And sadly, my cover got blown.
But honestly, I should thank that byotch for making life so memorable.so transparent yet so hypocritical.just another sickening dickface in the crowd.

2010-06-03T21:57:00.006+08:00

im fucking tired and pretty moody but i cannot NOT record this awesome day.nt much words.A PICTURE SPEAKS A THOUSAND WORDS ANYWAY.the pics are nt that nice.dun forget that its freaking iphone cam, not a DSLR.but they are priceless memories to keep as the time to say goodbye draws nearer.so sian.

anyway, we had FUN and really bankrupted ourselves along the way.thats great. ah.read on la.

LUNCH AT THAI EXPRESS

SEAFOOD KWAY TEOW.the best ever.

YUMMY PRAWN TOAST

MOVIE TICKETS AS U CAN SEE.

it was awesome.:)

A CHILDHOOD FANTASY FOR YEARS

Hg AND I

COLOURS!

THOROUGH COLOUR PLAN

OFF WE GO!

THIS IS STRESSFUL.
.

HALFWAY THRU MINE

HALF WAY THRU HG'S
-

AND I GOT IT!

SO DID SHE!

MY LITTLE CHIO GIRL

HG's CROSS GENETICS

OUR fabulous WORKDESK

READY TO BE BAKED TILL CRISP

AND THERE WE HAVE IT

really not in the mood to elaborate much.maybe 2mr.

u noe it really is stupid of us to really care that much.as in the truth is that we cant change anything.and its not anyone's fault.we just have to accept our fate.one day it will be accepted.

Movie marathon details

2010-05-31T20:31:00.001+08:00

Awesome INVITED babes:

Here's the following schedule.

JUN HOLS MOVIE MARATHON
REPORTING TIME: 1100
MATERIALS TO BRING:
YOURSELF
MOVIE CDS
MONEY
SNACKS
*MEMBER OF THE HCBC TOY FAMILY
Wan ping's CAMCORDER

*this is Very very important.
Dun be late ah.see u guys 2mr!(:

2010-05-30T12:23:00.001+08:00

So many happenings!
Shall start with thursday(3 days late):
HCI, TJ AND NJC CAME TO GIVE THEIR TALKS!(:

AND YES, I HAVE MADE AN UNWAVERING DESICION, to work super super hard to get into NJC!!!! I loved their talk the most out of all the schools that came.it wasn't as complex as RI AND HCI but it looked like a heartwarming environment where you dun have to be an exellent exellent student.(:and the speaker MR MENON was also so engaging! Oh ya.and some ppl.they kept laughing away like mad insane ass holes at times even when it wasn't funny.hello?get a life can honestly?imagine what they think of us.cedar girls.bimbotic immature girls=.=WTF.

Anyway, heather and I went to celebrate the last day of school by paying a visit to our loved restaurant; PIZZA HUT!!
And we also did alot of planning for......it's a secret.haha.

FRIDAY:
it was Vesak day and we went to the buddhist temple at Race course road.it was so hot that u couldn't even feel that ur sweating.i guess the body just got used to the auto bathing stimulator sweat gland._. It's been so many yrs since I went there and it felt good to be back.(:
Nothing much that's important enough to comment about that day.

SATURDAY
MY SIS AND I WENT TO RESORTS WORLD SENTOSA FOR AN EVENT.it was so pretty!sentosa is really a changed commercial island.and watching the universal studios globe spin around was WOW.anyway,the food was satisfactory and the guy who sat beside me,WTF.honestly,just because yr the chairperson and studied in SIM UR SOME BIG FUCK?so annoying.I've never met a talkative idiotic assholic annoying boastful, braggy, insensitive son of a bitch in my life.he better watch out.

And Sunday:
I'm at civil service club for a bowling event.and I'm desperately trying to finish up piano hmwk.=.=

Ah shall blog later.so =.=

PICTURE POST!

2010-05-26T19:50:00.003+08:00

ah.finally some time to post photographs!(:

my sis and i on our way to club

HG busy studying geog

AM studying geog

2 yrs in AV is no joke.so for old time's sakes:

sec 3s and sec 4s

exco' 09/10!:)

yups.no time alr.GTG.XOXO

21 to 22

2010-05-26T18:34:00.002+08:00

Today was so unusual.so slack.and heather gan Hwee min nvr come school.jahat.=.=LOL.

Anyway, we got back our MT results today.not very good.I suppose I deserve the marks I got since I didn't bother to revise.but on the bright side, if I revise I can actually get an A!!(:so Amirah and wan ping and I gt the same grade so must see Heather's one!(it better be like ours ah if not u will be nicknamed scholar for life)haha.anyway,mt lessons today were so waste of time.last mt period everyone was singing.I do enjoy listening to tamil songs but just this singing business in class...ah nvm.let me just put it that maybe I'm not so close.that's all.nth much to say about that.

ACS(I) and RI came to talk to us about their school today.and finally there was a proper rundown on what IB really is.it does sound real interesting and happening but is it better to be old school or brave and fresh.I duno.but they having a open house 2mr though.

AND RI.the talk was really impressive to a certain extent.what was so attractive that besides academics, they offer a wide range of activities and programmes and there's one called GEEK CENTRAL.hmm.i like people who are bold enough to accept who they really are.lol.

but yeah im SUPER DUPER EXCITED FOR 2MR!!!:)
CUZ NATIONAL JUNIOR COLLEGE IS COMING!!!
so happy!the open house was way below impressive( maybe cuz of the challenge it was to get there on a rainy day or smth) but yeah, im really really expecting it! the reason i like NJC is not because of seniors or any shit.dun get the wrong idea that cedarians are like that.i guess i really like the school since i duno when.i have kept every brochure, every bookmark,every handout given about NJC.so its time to see what they really have to offer!:)))))

moving on,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY CUTE PUSS, VINO!
its my awesome sister's birthday today!we had a BLAST this afternoon with awesome LUNCH at manhattan's and shopping around TANGS! i still havent made her card though._. but yeah. we re going out in a while!excited!

well yeah.thats about all for today:)

Hmmm...

2010-05-25T17:01:00.001+08:00

'Sleep sometimes shuts up one's sorrows'.i hated Helena for this line.but it's good comfort at the end of the day,even if it's just temporary.

PS: dun worry sweetheart.love u loads.(:

NJC's coming to cedar!!!(:
And mt results on the way.__.

The heat finally melted the hail down

2010-05-24T19:12:00.001+08:00

Half more paper to go 2mr before I AM FINALLY FREE!(:
Ah omg.today's paper was surprisingly managable.which is GOOD(:
I think heather likes my sheep clothing alot.she used it to play pretend that she was pregnant and felt cold.if I spelt out the drama we enacted clearly in black and white,it would be the biggest embarrassment of our lives so I shall keep mum about this(:
Went out with my sis and ate THAI EXPRESS after so so long. We were really really hungry that I forgot to take pictures so cannot post but yeah.we ordered 2 dishes which had difficulty finishing.and out of 2, was only 1 main course.I'm telling u, we order red Tom yum crayfish glass noodle soup and the portion was freaking huge.we didn't finish it till the end.any person,living or dead who could eat that big portion including the awesome soup till the last drop is the real ORIGINAL food king.but it was still awesome TTM!(: and we also ordered prawn toast as an appetizer cum side dish cuz order 1 dish would be like damn CHEAPSKATE.and it was yummy too.I think Thai express is the best Thai cuisine in the sense that you can always try smth new knowing that it will never taste awfully wrong.(:
We kind of spent our time looking at stuff in J8 when I came across this.
COTTON IS HAVING A FREAKING SALE!50% STOREWIDE!
like hello!?the dresses are all going at 10 bucks!!?is this a deal or what!so all those cotton on-ers,in case you didn't know, cotton on has started it's GSS sale and heather and I are not wasting any time and we re rushing down to grab clothes so you should too!!!(((((:
Can't wait!I'm so excited.the only thing is that I'll be in school uniform and have to change out but heck.I can hear the clothes and chio heels calling my name.LOL.but ya.so u get the point.I'm going mad.awesomely exhilaratingly MAD.and I'm loving it.

Ah ok.I'm very tired right now.that's all.

2010-05-23T15:13:00.001+08:00

Talk about having no excitment in my life.
My dad's bike just broke down in the middle of CTE.and here we are siting in the narrow pavement of the exit to orchard road waiting for the tow to arrive.and it's freaking scary to see all the vehicles zoom past us within inches gap.OMFG.what luck we have.seriously.

Let the graduates in!

2010-05-23T09:57:00.001+08:00

Sooo many things have happened and I've not been blogging them down.prelims are going on!it's not that I dun have time(I still watch Chinese Drama everyday).but prelims sour yr mood.=.=

Anyway, 19 may 2010.
My sister's graduation from NYP; BUSINESS ENTERPRISE IT; PIONEER BADGE.

Anyway, I rushed there str after my maths paper and her school campus is HUGE.(maybe cuz coming str from cedar or smth)but ya.she look so cute in her graduation outfit(I duno WTF it's called)!we chionged into the auditorium cuz must get front seat to take nice video and photos.typical Singaporean right?iknow! Anyway, only 2 courses were graduating at that time and there were many more before and after. So before the graduation started, thy showed this video and SHE WAS FEATURED WITH 2 of her BFFs!so cute!and the video also ended with their pose together!(((: ya, so graduation started some 'big' guy went to speak and after him was ms Teresa Lim, DIRECTOR OF IBM!?she was so chio in the sense that she had the look of a strong successful career woman.and her speech had REAL substance.she used this line, "As an IBMer,...." which is so stylish and my sis LOVED to keep saying that to us when she was there on attachment. Ah,nxt was presentation of certificates and awards!!it was really entertaining even though soooo many ppl were just going up and down cuz each of them walk so funny.and the parents' reaction; CLASSIC. A butch went up and everyone was like giving the shocked expression and took a deep breath in shock bcuz of her hair and stuff.poor parents; culture shock. And some girls came in really nice super chio killer HIGH(I mean really really high) heels but when they walked, they look so funny, trodding away.and everyone went like "haha.she can't walk in it."it's so mean but whatever. I was staring at the graduation book and I managed to find AMIRAH's sister's name!haha.kept me entertained.(;

After it was over, we rushed to take the photos wif my sis but she was like so stressed cuz she had alot alot of things to do:
1 meet up with her classmates
2 go get their certificates before 7
3 order the photographs
4 return the 'uniform' thingy
and somemore that I didn't bother to find out.
My dad was so sweet that he secretly bought her the graduation bear!!so nice of him right!?he nvr does such stuff.
Anyway the buffet SUCKED.really.sucked to the core.the mac and cheese was saltless, the chicken meatballs were tasteless and all rubbery, the fish sauce was as clear and runny as water and the mixes can veggies looked like they dropped right out of the can.omfg.when ur so tired and weary at night, they give u such food.thanks a million. Dun care abt that.
Moving on, we met one of my sister's Ang moh lecturers.he's one charming man.it seems he has alot of Chinese gfs and clubs every weekend at Clarke quay.that's one HIP lecturer to learn from.

And yeah, with that her graduation came to an end.I think many of them would have cried and thy played the graduation song which would make it worse.the new graduands.they sound so WOW.well so say hello to the new nyp graduate ma sister.(:

Ps: I'll post photos another day.

2010-05-19T20:21:00.001+08:00

OMFG.a chance to FINALLY meet X is coming our way!!HEATHER GAN!we need to Jump at IT!!!(:

This thrilling exhilerating moment ended when I thought of 12hours into the damn future.:/

I am tired of trying so hard.

2010-05-16T20:15:00.001+08:00

Ok.I've been like having fever the whole day.this sucks big time cuz I haven't completed my preparation for prelims.I'm so dead.I bet they re gonna thrash me during meet-the-parents.=.=

Whatever.I was watching ANTM CYCLE 14 last night!(: it's not as nice as other cycles( maybe cuz i'm watching it on my phone) but yeah.I liked anslee at 1st but after her whining of missing her child and being freaking scared of losing when she sacrificed so much was like the last straw.like hello.u should turn that negative energy to a movitation to strive even harder?ah whatever.shan't talk about this.worthless.

Friday was awesome cuz HEATHER AND I HAVE AN INGENIOUS IDEA! Say hello to the IMITATING LIVES OF LALA AND PO.(:
It's basically an accidental production when we just couldn't stop imitating each other.it turns out to be hilarious since we have shot our 1st few 'episodes' which are pretty amateur-fied cuz it's not scripted and poor setting( we were in a foodcourt) but yeah.it's cool.we were thinking of imitating loh wan ping.cuz she has a CLASSIC line.*we can't say it out if not not exciting alr!* amirah's one is like damn easy la!HAHA.so anyway,after prelims, we will use our lousy IT skills to do some editing here and there and yes,we will post it.(:
I guess this will like appeal to bored ppl and would like to be siao along with us cuz if u dun know us, it will really look damn idiotic.anyway, whatever la.If u wanna see, see. If not shut up and ass off.(:nobody's forcing you.

Anyway, moving on,

IS YOUR SIDE LIKE SPLITTING UP?

LOL.one shouldn't wash dirty linen in public then act all happy and demure.it TOTALLY blows your cover can?

As a literature student,this brings a deeper understanding about HCBC.(:
it is true that the common topic between us was RC.and we were all insecure when that common topic came to an end.but I suppose all the dying and crying and hugging and playing and bitching made up for all the insecurites and the loss if our common topic.I agree life's pretty dull with remedial after remedial but all the spas and effort to make each of our lives have some 'LIFE' whether or not successful or not,makes this dull monotonous period brighter.
Just because you lose the topic, you think u no longer belong together is just so superficial. I suppose I can laugh at them but it helps me realise that it wasn't exactly the common topic that kept us together; it was our common understanding.

I think it's really really CRAZY and OUT OF THE WORLD that we are BFFs cuz all 4 of us are pretty short tempered and stubborn characters not forgetting that we can be really really mean when we hate someone.nobody would ever imagine such extreme characters would stick together.but we did(:
I guess this shows that it's not impossible.it's whether you try in the relationship.I suppose we are all more understanding towards each other when one irritates the other and one has mood swings, etc.
Honestly, I won't hesitate to tell ppl off if they throw tantrums and expect ppl to behave appropriately to their mood swings.

Oh fun fact, heather gan left her pencil case in the AVT so intelligently but I saved that damsel in distress.cannot say how.later I'll get killed by the school.LOL.

And that brings the end to yet another wonderfully thrilling day of my life.

2010-05-16T19:49:00.001+08:00

She's such a bitch.not saying hi to the dog next to her.maybe that's cuz she found a new one.

belated mother's day i guess

2010-05-14T09:58:00.000+08:00

SNAPSHOTS OF MOTHER's DAY PREP.(:

TAADAA!(:
ok i know this is late but i got nth to do now so im just blogging photos off my phone.

Blogwriter's not that good after all

2010-05-12T23:23:00.001+08:00

Today's a short day turned to an enormously long day.
Lessons were really draggy.
AZRI's BIRTHDAY.HAPPY BIRTHDAY AZRI!(: she's a nice person.(:

Bloody fucking horse was so fucking annoying.she's really a damn ugly bitch to start off with.as in it's not as if I'm some ego maniac who thinks that I'm damn pretty but really, that girl is one coward bitch.really the way she walks.EVERYONE HAS MADE FUN OF IT.( I'm just telling you in case u thought u were cat walking the whole time)
She's really got us damn freaking pissed.I really wanna be nicer to generally everyone but when u hit ppl from the back,it's a little sickening.more of boring also.there's so many cruel crude things I can say but I'm fucking tired so I shan't bother to elaborate about a dick faced moron who doesn't and never will have a part in my life.

Anyway, I CHIONGED back home after remedial and stuff!
PHOTOSHOOT WAS AWESOME TTM!!!(((:it was really a interesting experience and finally I can blog it off with ease.It's definitely damn tiring due to the minor imperfections blah blah and poor light effect but it is damn super super FUN! We had a MS JAY ALEXANDRA JR to help us with our poses and tilt faces(heather I remember you when ppl were tilting their faces!u know y....LOL) but yeah it was pretty challenging also.cuz I realise I'm a self conscious person and I can't be like posing alone and having people stare at me.so we had obedient young men to excuse themselves from the room till we were done cuz anywhere they mainly had all sorts of corny jokes to share.but actually I admit being a idiot and keep laughing at them and when my turn came, it was really hard.but we ALL survived and I pray that the hardwork pays off and gets published somewhere nice with lots of photoshopping to look more CHIO!haha.but ya.so fun.so tired.it's 11.14pm.I have all my makeup and contact lenses on.I know I'll be dead on my bed 2mr morning if I dun take all these off NOW.my eyes will be smudged with lots of liner and my eyes blood shot red due to the lack of O2 in my eyes, ending looking like a ghost.which is the same as dead. Oh, I've been using olive oil( not the cooking oil!) to remove my makeup ever since my eye makeup remover finished to the last drop and it's really good.the dumb part is that so many people knew about it.so to all those innocent young souls out there, u can use OLIVE OIL TO REMOVE YOUR EYE MAKEUP.(:

I think heather gan would have done well with the photoshoot with all the lessons from ANTM.regret not watching ANTM now.):ah, nvm.it's my 1st shot and it's not like it's for life to hav the pic stuck up everywhere so dun care.(:

That's all.(:
PS: people seem to be pissed that we were present.your fury makes us feel all so happy, giggly and fuzy inside.(: thanks.we haven't derived such sadistic joy since you left.(:

I'll take a walk down memory lane tonight

2010-05-12T23:01:00.001+08:00

It's been a long day.I've been studying organic chemistry the whole day.I think it's finally sinking in.
Did Chemistry for 3 hours in a row.I'm really exhausted.
Heather gan did her maths homework.and spent the rest of the time observing me.jahat la you.nvr study!haha.and yes,
LETS GO BUY DUCK RICE IN THE RAIN.

I'm sitting at the FLEC.it brings back memories.we couldn't wait to come back and own that FLEC.it was ours.:)but coming back,besides memories, it didn't hold anything else.no passion but memories.
As I walked down to the FLEC, I closed my eyes for a few seconds and when I opened them, I could see the little sec 1 buggers who had come in, fearing Sarah ma'am,at the same time wondering how she can be so fair, giggling how kong hwa ma'am was so chio, panicking how to tell Kelly ma'am that they forgot to bring blah blah.I could see all of them dying during PT, sweating and panting so hard.I could see them running off to empty their bottles after training.and I could see them slacking after trainings, planning for mfw performance and gifts.
Now when all this memories flash past, it doesn't really hurt anymore.I can see all in a total different perspective.there's still this tiny part in your heart that longs to go back to that moment just for a few minutes but it behaves itself from causing tears cuz the brain has started accepting the fact of reality that we can't exactly go back into the past.

I think for the 1st time I can truthfully say I'm starting to let go.it's not that bad after all.some people take longer but it all turns around eventually.

We are completely ignoring each other.but there's no feeling.:)

Now there's a new problem that awaits us: adapting to the simple studious life we MUST adhere and comply to. It's like a regimental thing.

2mr's the day.:)something to look forward to.must go home and prepare. Oh n I totally forgot that I soft rebonded and trimmed my hair.I need to wait a month before I can style it.so say hi to the kiki girl from some rural town!OMG.I'm BFFs to African kid alr!we r so alike now.:)

Recently, there's been an abrupt change in my life.I can't really explain it cuz ppl who don't believe it will just think it's all a joke.but yeah.I must learn to live with it.and right now, I only dare to share this with HCBC.I duno what I'm supposed to achieve through this.but I'll learn.

I'll take a walk down memory lane tonight

2010-05-11T18:23:00.001+08:00

2010-05-11T17:00:00.001+08:00

8 may 2010

2010-05-08T20:47:00.001+08:00

OMG TODAY IS THE REAL WORLD RED
CROSS DAY!haha.

PO N LALA's TRIP TO THE GROCERY STORE

2010-05-08T20:29:00.001+08:00

yesterday was the best day of the week.:)
In the morning was WRCD.no comments on that.moving on, for once PE WAS SOOO FUN!honestly, male PE TEACHERS ARE THE NICEST TEACHERS can?because some ppl weren't in school, the lesson was so fun.those in cca full uni didn't have to join in so we all sat and talked about how our cca sucks.Omg.ya.we were complaining away,sharing each other's woes n difficulties we all face.and I came to a conclusion; we were the saddest ones among all.there was always this hope that we are not that disadvantaged but we really are.they were complaining about their sec 1s and we did the same.I'm sorry but it's true.sec 1s were really a pain when they came in.( refer to some previous post) ah,so anyway,life seemed much better.no one to finally breathe down yr neck.
During recess, we were talking about WRCD.I think it's disappointing.it was painful to leave but at least we were satisfied that the unit's passed into good hands; in fact better hands.but they are slowly but surely proving us wrong.oh cmon.every junior waits for this day.now it has come,utilize it properly.:)

All the lessons were quite slack.ASSEMBLY.omg.it's so annoying.
"THOSE OF YOU NOT SEATED IN YOUR CLASSES, STAND UP AND MOVE NOW"
Oh for god's sake,even this kind of slack thing also has to be controlled.can y'all trust ppl?or at least, send those PCs of yours to patrol the classroom block to check if anyone pon la.so irritating.miss those days where we could sit together and make the MOST BORING assembly the most fun ever!:))
Head prefect election speeches.it's abit obvious all those neutral ppl like me would vote for DIVIYA.anyway, I've known her from tuition and she's quite nice la.anyway, in terms of the election speech she was the most outstanding.:)))

After school, SHOPPING!!!:)))we headed to PLAZA SINGAPURA.:)went to pizza hut and found out that oriental chicken baked rice is back on the menu.so we ordered that.but it tasted different.so eew.and the soup had a slight burnt taste.ah.plaza sing pizza hut sucks la.dun go there if possible.not worth the money.
So we spent a bulk of our time at COTTON ON.since I had a super tight budget to work on.heather gan,my personal stylist helped me pick out my outfit.the criteria was that there was to be no all black, white, grey,basically dark dark colours and had to be vibrant.I suppose I'm not at all a vibrant person,taking into account that my wardrobe is chucked with dark coloured outfits.
S: I wanna try that!
H: it's black.
S: how about this one??
H: there's grey in it.
S:I think this is pretty.
H: put that down.
So after all the hussle, I finally got a floral dress.moving onto the shoes section.so many chios heels but comfort was essential so I picked out red peep-toed wedges with a cute bow ribbon at the front!!!of course with the approval of ms heather.(who rides on a red scooter!:P)
Anyway, I've been a mad cow and I've been walking in it around my house every few minutes cuz it's so cute.cuz once again,never will I get red heels.black sleek ones are the love after all.
It doesn't really feel like me but since it's the criterion for wed, and it's just for a few hours, I guess I'll just have to put up with it.
Next was the amazing race around PLAZA SING to get my mother's day gifts!!it's a full DIY gift so 1st instinct was to run to DAISO!spent like 16 bucks there. Went to mini bits cuz I was running low of money and spotted a pair of decent earrings.supposed to go next door to Helen after that to get myself accessories but I realised that I have piano so I started to panick and we were off to next station: soft toy. The guy totally gave me a discount, I think unknowingly of 20 dollars discount.how kind of him!I had to stop myself from smiling.haha.I know I'm bad to not say anything but students are hard up for money.we need to scrimp and save in this globalising world.:) next up: cosmetics. This time, I thought of myself too.how about buying something that my mum AND I can share an utilize as well??haha. Poor PO was damn tired from all that running around and trying on outfits so we headed down to carrrefour to grab a nice drink and I had to run off for piano. And she made it a must that I must tell my mum that she was there throughout the whole process!haha.u know ur really getting yrself into trouble.nxt time u come over,my mum will make sure she takes extra care of u like a queen which also means stuffing with u with lots of food and attention.and if u compete with me for my ma's love PO, I'll send you home in yr scooter!hahaha.

Spent the whole day making mum's gift!haha.anyway, it's nice to be happy again but the mood swings still set in on and off.

And I agree with PO on feeling insecure and lonely when there's no need to and we are actually not lonely but I duno.I think we have real tumbly hormones that jump here and there.oh well, just hope I can get through this phase of my life well.I realli think that this is my happiest time of my life in all the yrs in cedar.as in of cuz I was happy then too but at least this time, when I go home, I know for sure that I have 3 ppl to back me up whenever needed and will be there for me.it's not like that kind of go out, enjoy and when u return home, it just feels empty.like it doesn't impact u.
This months that HCBC has been together has been great.there were ups and downs but at the end we just feel good and close to each other.just like TELETUBBIES.

Blogwriter app!:)))

2010-05-08T18:38:00.001+08:00

OMG.I AM THE PROUD OWNER OF BLOGWRITER APP.(PAID)
omg.this is so exciting.can upload photos!:)
Now I can ditch sharing comps and now fully work using my precious baobei phone!:)))
Actually I wanted to blog about po and my outing to db but this is a test drive to feel what's it like.actually it feels the same.ah.watever.
SO HAPPPPPYY!

PMS

2010-05-06T16:00:00.001+08:00

I've been PMSing for 2 days.
3 papers are over.5 more to go.
Maybe cuz life's been meaningless the past few days.study.mug.

X: hey!
Y: (wave hand and smile)
X: omg.I was studying the whole evening.
Y: are you serious?I cldnt take it at 10 plus.went to slack.
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X: what's the diff between V4 and causal?
Y: got superlative la.
X: oh ya.haha.
Y: omg.it's time to go up alr.so scared.
X: ya.me too.:(

This is how our convos been.of course got stupid stuff and mad laughter but it's just not the same.it's empty when we take a minute and stand back and watch.most of the talk is to run off to spa prac,remedial, lessons, tuition. We re so absorbed in trying so hard that at times we forget y we r trying so hard.
Everything seems so dead yet alive.
Mayb going out with PO 2mr might help.
Even then,my mind isn't planning on wht to get, my stomach's not tumbling on how fun it's going to be.
Maybe we forgot how to have fun.how fun we had feels like.
REAL FUN.like we used to.
Even though we cried and cursed before, we remembered the FUN 1st followed by that.now with boring dead life and the little fun we have, I'm not able to see the FUN 1st.when I shld.

I know I shld have gone to school today.I just cldnt. And now it's worse.can teachers just stop bugging and intruding forever?damn it la.

Maybe this is how she felt.we didn't know then.that's y she left.but we laughed.now we re stuck here,left to die.

2010-05-03T20:21:00.000+08:00

STUDY DATE AT TP is awesome when you LOVE each other.
anyway, PO and i decided to meet at TP KFC for breakfast and study SS n GEOG.:)for once, we were both on time.the timings were PURRRRFECT.u see, we re all made for each other.LOL.yup.so we headed to kfc, bought food, sit down, crap and laugh over lame POK stuff then my phone goes BEEP.it was AMY-rah.HAHA.
'im coming late'

S:eh babe, amirah coming ah?

H:she is?

S & H: HAHAHAHA!OMG!

(u see, we laugh at not funny stuff.this is what sec 4s are like.they dun have a life.)
so we study abit talk talk then amy comes!haha.babes UNITE.haha.u see, she loves us so much she HAD to rush down.cldnt be seperated for so many days!

some SMART ALECK kept bugging to go the lib so we headed ther.please.i know the lib so well i dun even bother to take it as an option.its FOREVER crowded can?SPOREAN KIDS ARE HARDWORKING.:) so we made do with comfy seats and surf the net, looking thru freaky sites AND blogs.REAL FREAKY.

amirah, amirah.what can i do to help you?ill nvr know.

then the same SMART ALECK thot of POLAR.actually i duno y we didnt think of it since we used to frequent it.but anyway, so relocate again.OMG.got relation to GEOG.transmigration policy so the govt move ppl to somewher else.
anyway, i really studied for geog damn hard.like ive nvr studied that hard before.duno wher i got the drive and motivation.maybe from the 2 LOVES.awwww.sweet.:)
time passes when u hav an exam the nxt day and most of the time, the other 2 were like in dreamland or stoneland can?ok la.i know yall did quite a lot.haha.good JOB k?LALA loves u.:)
move here move ther,end up in YA KUN and went bac wif amirah on !%%.(its purposely done this way.for suspense.)AHAHAHA.

i duno y but we were like so scared for 2mr.like it was our 1st time taking exams like tt.its like we want everything to be perfect.oh, must bring 2 jackets.damn.n none of us cld accept reality so we refused to go home.i guess we r just mad cows with impulsive actions.:)

SNAPSHOTS

amirah and her pandan cake.

studying for hours can make u do weird stuff like slamming a book on yr face.

our beautiful, handwritten chio notes.someone trying to show off!!:P

GUESS WHO?

OMG, i got this brilliant idea.calling ALL PPL OUT THERE.this is a competition that is a breeze if u are a TRUE BLUE Cedarian.guess who this person is correctly and stand a chance to have a 1-on-1 date with her!!!WOOOHOOO!

if u think its amirah, u might be mistaken.it may be.or maynot be.but is it to be that you get to go out with her?u never know.

omg, i sound so stupid.ah.watever la.so stone and hardcore today.its ok to be spas to keep yourself going.

DUM dee DUM DUM.:)

the pre exam syndrome is hitting me.GTG.

curiousity DID kill the CAT.

2010-04-30T22:24:00.000+08:00

CEDAR's GOT TALENT 2010. can u believe we freaking paid 10 bucks?i cant.its pretty shocking. i think it was ok la.dance night was better though.the performances were definitely nice.especially sarah chan's piano recitations.she should have joined the competition.and of course the winner,VAN.she does have an amazing voice.oh, melissa TEE.she is an eye catching star.i think her little brother so cute.haha.its fun to see siblings pair up and dance.she is one talented girl with working her feet on the dancefloor with heels.i guess MISFITS and RIOTS were entertaining.we actually decided to go for CGT after hearing them rehearse at the canteen.HAHA.and with ALICIA, the only rc person in the competition, whats left to do than lend her some support!?haha.anyway, since we've stepped down i guess we can bravely scream and cheer for her!:)i think the judges comments were Interesting.as in some were honestly absurd and some were really hilarious!but i think if it was more professional, it would have been nicer,more GLAM.anyway,during the intermission, we were deliberating to vote or not cuz the auditorium seats are so comforting.then we saw JOANNE.haha.poor thing.we called her to come over and luckily, eventually she came so we placed our votes.if not honestly, i wouldnt have walked all the way down to vote with everyone rushing and bustling to the laptops.i guess it was abit obvious of who outshone the most among the rest so there wasnt exactly much suspense or anything.oh, VJC's arts fest winners came over to perform and 'some' ppl were honestly over reacting.hello?i dun really have much comments.LOL.i must admit they are good though.

anyway, we had AMATHS mock in the afternoon.i think it was do-able.as in some i know that if i had revised that topic properly, i would have known how to do it but yeah.i hope can pass.:)

pictures we took at CGT!

our precious inaugural arts fest tickets.

we sneaked this macho guy in!

PICTURE OF THE DAY

attempt of spongyboby's 'suai' exprssion

snapshot of winning moment

for once, amy-RAH sent the photos on time.good job!RAH!haha.i guess its a nice way to end school.

moving 'back', there are some amusing happenings recently.

i duno y everyone's scared to tell PO.

as in yr hesitation and fear just helps boost our self confidence btw.

honestly, till to this day, ppl are still trying to SUCK down.think about it.ok, if u wanna become a VI or smth, ok la.we somewhat understand that you want juniors to LOVE you and idolise you or with some crappy defense u will give, like how u wanna build good repo with them whatever whatever.but how about the rest?its amusing to watch how hard ppl try and dun get it.and for some who dun try at all have the results landing right on their lap.aiya.i hated it when maams crashed our lessons.even though they just sat at the back, it still is intruding that ther was no courtesy shown whatsoever to even inform us.i would have HATED it like shit as a junior to have my 1st lesson completely conquered.luckily, we were fortunate enough to have our 1st training happily.pls la ppl.o's coming soon.get a life and move on will yeah?they are not babies or anything.in fact, they are pretty matured leaders i must say.ah.oh well. its just a comment.from my perspective.dun get so worked up if it isnt true.after all,its just a mere assumption.haha.:)

curiousity kills the cat.

SHANT CARE ABOUT ASSHOLES

2010-04-25T19:55:00.000+08:00

AN outing with GUcci made COCO chanel jealous.
WENT TO orchard with family.it was an extravagant day.its like damn cute cuz we had alr decided the itenary for the day so we dressed according to the theme.LOL.we had to start cheap so ate at a REAL CHEAPO place.shant bother to name.headed straight to orchard.we were all poise ladies and a cute gentleman, my dad.LOL.we checked out LOUIS VUTTON.everytime i think of LV,i think of russell peters' act on the pronunciation of louis vutton.total funny stuff.)anyway, we went to 2 outlets.i know everything's the same.but the showcases are not.CHANEL.everything's so pretty.if only COCO CHANEL could see the kind of pretty stuff.and in prada, they had the prettiest CHIO HOT PINK WALLET every girl would die for.but of course the price would make every teenager faint.anyway, we browsed through many other branded shops and finally landed in GUCCI.my sister fell in LOVE with a wallet.(actually its quite nice la),so we waited for MIRA,a staff we frequently find when we go there.she's real nice la.at least the SENTENCE,'I WANT TO EARN COMMISSION FOR WHAT YOU BUY' isnt excatly smacked on her forehead.she's real nice. and so i checked out the second level and the clothes are real quality stuff.not like topshop kind wher they charge 100 for pasar malam material labelled TOpshoP.its real GUCCI stuff.i didnt even dare touch it.the clothes just glittered under the spotlights.dun dare snap a pic of it later kena caught.so embarrassing.its like after 15 mins into the shop, the sales staff just tell u the price is' 3 plus,5 plus,etc.' that gives you the tiny wheeny hope that its gonna be 5 bucks.haha.anyway, after pigging away for a while at ta
ka, we also checked out the latest goods at bakerzin and river gauche pattiessiere.the cakes look heavenly.u cant stop staring it for a couple of seconds without blinking.but some are quite ugly.cant believe anyone would buy that stuff.we went bac to the store, grabbed her wallet, my dad's cardholder(i think its hideous,sorry.:))and headed back home.i guess im just too young to have a fetish for such branded goods.nvm.THERE's STILL A KID IN ME.

anyway, we also checked out ION at the same time.THIS IS WHAT I LIKE.i practically surveyed the scene.ive kind of scanned thru the stuff n i know what im gonna get.n im grabbing INNOCENT LITTLE PO with me.hopefully ONE PINK WILL COME THE NEXT TIME!(heard that pink!?HAHAHAHA)

walking along orchard is fun.seeing the different types of people, doing funny things.sometimes we wish we could stand there and just stare at the lights.:)tired but happy.

BIO MOCK prelim.we re told on friday and the test is on monday.is it fair.i dun think so.i really wanna ace SS/GEOG!!!!:)mrs LKC is actually a super teacher la.(can imagine her in a red cape)ive nvr met a teacher like that.lol.anyway, my piano is gonna be done in 2 yrs and i hope i can finally start off my 1st job in the world as a part time piano teacher.so cool.but its gonna be a challenging 2 yrs.lets see how it goes.:)

AND PO.WE ARE SO GONNA BE ON ATTACHMENT after our Os.ive done my research and we my dear are on our way to one of the top firms in SINGAPORE.its more or less confirmed with my super dad helping us.:)
SAY HI TO SHOPPING FOR coporate clothes!
omg, actually thats like one of the excitements im awaiting for after Os.and one more,ITS A SECRET.

maybe we shldnt be friends.at least then i can tell you off in your face how u disgust me.loser.

Y did it have to happen?

2010-04-25T13:08:00.001+08:00

Can you stop it?honestly.I know u will read it.but I'm not sure if u Noe it's for you.it's all over.know your lines.I can't pretend like everything was a dream.it was real.and I wished it was a dream.I really wish.cuz I dun like it and I never will.i can't wait for you to leave.and I'm serious about it this time.

when love doesnt want to behave.

2010-04-23T22:21:00.000+08:00

hello world.
im very sorry for the damage caused on the artic the other day.
the glaciers on yr head were really sore.
im sorry there are so many fucked up ppl on you.
i admit that im one of them.
its just that some of them are MORE fucked up than the other.
dun u feel like drowning those who own like 3 freaking cars that are not even CNG cars?
dun u feel like striking down those who complain when they DEMAND for air con when they sleep?
there are many more horrible nasty things ppl have been doing without being considerate of your feelings.
and now I can see that u r so pissed.
erupting unknown long hard-to-pronounce names volcanoes that have not erupted for 200 over yrs.
shifting plates that cause high magnitude earthquakes.
i know we deserve it.
we are serious morons.
despite u booming out your unhappiness, some MORONs still dun care.i bet some are busy turning their air cons to 16 degrees and covering their fat asses with blankets and snoring away right at this moment.
ppl wont get it until u knock at their door and tell them WAKE UP ASSHOLE in their faces.
they dun have compassion for humanity, thebiggest common race they belong to. they read the papers of devastation in quake areas, sigh, fold the newspaper and continue with their life.
pls dun be angry.
we need you.healthy and strong.
it hurts when you wipe out innocent lives.
yet again i know we deserve it.
but look at the people who are with you; trying to help you; standing by you.
i'm sorry for hurting u so much.
i will try to be ECO friendly. i mean to be more considerate towards your feelings.
lets be friends once again shall we?
LOVE u.sleep tight.

with love,
A LIVING THING, A HUMAN,
ME.

Maybe things change when u turn 5.

2010-04-23T09:34:00.001+08:00

OMG.I didn't go to school today.damn tired.I cannot express the migrain I had yesterday and my blood red eyes.my nerves were literally popping out can!?so I just decided at 615 that WTF.Im not going to school.I know that i'm sec 4 now cannot miss lessons blah blah blah but I dun care.it's not as if I'm gonna pay attention with how worn out I m.n teachers will just think that I'm some assholic kid in their valuable lesson.

Anyway, let's start off with the morning.I filled up my water bottle from sec 4 level water cooler( next to 4P) and I got a shock of my life.the whole thing turned milky at 1st and slowly bubbled up and disappeared.(my bottle is transparent so dun dare argue)so as a cedarian,what should I do?according to what was said during pupil leaders' time was that if there were such incidents, we should report it to ms nair at the GO.so as a good kid I went and:

S:I'm looking for ms nair
X:she's not here.y?
S: u c,I filled up my bottle and it turned milky.....(my story)
X: but it's ok now what.
S:but how to drink this?they say I should report it.
X:what?y come here just fr that?just throw the water away!

The thoughts in my head.WTF.I cannot believe how fucked up these bloody assholes can be.if it's such a trivial matter,how about drinking the water?oh no.I forgot.u guys have dispensers.seriously.how fucking annoying can this be.u ask us to be gracious,blah blah must help one another so here I come running down to let them know the incident.(and there are quite a few teachers themselves who fill their bottles there FYI)n I get treated this way.so seriously fuck it.let ppl get sick from the contamination and let PARENTS complain.only then some assholes will listen.( I'm not afraid to be challenged anytime cuz 2 ppl saw the whole incident)

Thts y many are losing the school spirit.the only reason we come to school is for our friends.never in a million years with how students being treated like dirt will change so so be it.:)

EMATHS MOCK.I was too tired.I didn't study.I fell asleep.didn't finish the paper.confirm fail.I would prefer it not to be marked cuz it's nt worth marking a paper where no effort was put in,like mine.from the questions,if I had studied,it would have been a breeze.ah.whatever.

DANCE NIGHT.it was AWESOME TTM.honestly,all coming together on one stage.and not to mention, it ws FULLHOUSE!!!:)all those who missed it,it's a real loss.

They all went crazy after that.understandable.there was no concert etiquette AT ALL.LOL.ppl were cheering here and there.aiya.but it's ok.it's in cedar only.we got macs as dinner.hmm.yeah.there were so many spastic moments backstage with IZZAH!!HAHAHAHA.cannot blog about it in case kena scold.

N that was the end of the day.it felt like a Friday.so damn tired from all the running around the entire day.it's not easy to run the control room and backstage and stuff cuz ppl will hound us if we screw up and the pressure is really there.YURDA WAS GOING MAD.seen from her actions before the performance.lol.

My secret sixteenth birthday wish: I want a _ _ _ _.it captures pretty stuff.:)))my bdae and prelim 2 will clash.damn it.

Maybe if I didn't do all that I've done,I won't be feeling the regret.I'll regret not having fun.

A rose

2010-04-20T19:35:00.001+08:00

I was supposed to go see doctor but too lazy.haha.2mr then.:)
Got chem remedial 2mr.can't wait.
Got back emaths TA.it's ok la.got improve abit.i duno y I was so pissed off.like I felt like flinging my damn calculator out of the window.not forgetting the fucking bee with a huge ass coming to nest in my class.I duno.maybe I'm just in a bad mood but at least I didn't snap.I duno y but I feel so vexed.I can't be complaining about this to HCBC and stuff cuz it doesn't concern them n I dun wanna be like whiny,always about her problems and life.I have talked to them about it and as real sisters they ve given me all the encouragement for it.but my mind can't take it.
It sucks when we r stubborn.I should just let go.y get so flustered?maybe cuz I know it hurts there too.if it was just me with wanting that,I would have gotten over it cuz I know my priorities and stuff.but this.sighs.i duno if it hurts there like how it is over here.I'll never know anyway.everyone's so defensive.everytime one does it right and the other screws up,it sux cuz pain and regret sticks there.I wish I had been a good girl.at least I won't be complaining and whining away like whiny!haha.nvm.I suppose when I detach from the life vest and let the currents sweep me away,i won't have the time to think of anything.anyway,time heals wounds.and mine is just a bruise in everybody's eyes.

The only want is I want my reflection to fall over that land.not any Tom,dick or Harry.not many will get what i'm crapping here.I dun want some ppl to know in case it pricks them accidentally.it's like I wanna be a pretty rose and get that lady over the counter to buy me but I'm scared my thorns would put her off.so I just pretend to be like any other rose.simple n plain.in case it hurts.

Moving on,phototaking today! Haha.so funny.our soft toys were having scandals.like amy and po's!!!like hello!?my spongebob Oliver did 559 sit ups today.he's so macho.can take on FERRERO FURBEAR anytime.haha.I know it looked super dumb holding carebears and a yellow sponge soft toy but we want our photos to be different.like us!!:))
This year,I'm gonna buy the biggest photos they have!!haha.

I found out about my upstairs since 2005.let's count down:
2008-2009BRENDA MAAM
2007-2008JOYCE MAAM( same as 'feng xi!)
2006-2007DEBORAH MAAM( I was flabbergasted.who would have thought!?)
2005-2006ADHYIAH MAAM( I've never seen her)

Sadly in 2003 that era,there were no OA LESSONS!

Well yup.that's the day today.

2010-04-19T23:30:00.001+08:00

It's slowly seeping in that we re now over.all of us are pretty shaky right now.
The only thing that keeps us chirped up are sec 2s' gifts.it just feels awkward preparing uniform.it doesn't feel like mine.so foreign.yet so dear.my gold badges.love them so so much.haha.

AMY-RAH.HEAT-HER.ONE-PINK.SUE-KAA-SEE-KNEE.ACH-SEE-BEE-SEE.
So nonsense.

Met downstairs.I'm glad with the outcome.the vibe.if I were a junior and I look at US, I'll think they r one bunch of siao scary maams.we all have extrme personalities.haha.

Y comment on others' fustration like god almighty?you know you dun hve the right.u will never know the pain caused.but u WILL feel it one day.

The last long post for RCY

2010-04-17T11:01:00.001+08:00

Yesterday's highlight: Passing-out-parade

I started having the panic and anxiety attacks I used to get before we were maams before trainings.I just couldn't concentrate in lessons anymore.my head was in a whirl cuz everything seemed quite uncertain.how was POP going to be held?what's the proceedure?does that mean everything's over when the clock strikes 5?omg.I couldn't imagine the stupid way POP was going to be held since all the traditions were alr broken.I guess the last thing sec 4s would have wanted would be hving POP in the way we have been doing it for years.cuz we liked it.:)

The 'celebration'.seriously speechless.they got a cake.which FYI,none of the sec 4s touched.am n I couldn't take it then alr cuz she just kept stabbing us once again.y say things when you don't mean it?why say sweet things to trick us into believing that you are oh-so-nice?it was the last day for many of us n maybe you thought we'll all be laughing away.like you.we may be bitches but we hve a heart you know.u dun even understand y we were crying.OMFG.what kind of person is she? I'll nvr know cuz she has far too many masks that I'm tired of figuring out which is her real face as it doesn't matter anymore.:)

So,we were emoing away somewhere far when suddenly they wanted to make last minute changes.wow.seriously.fuck it la.have anyone of y'all heard?positions are still being deliberated on POP day.how funny can that get?

Fuck these shit.it was POP alr. Really heartbreaking.our water taps got opened real quick.in fact the fastest.I guess it hurt that it was all going to be over.we were leaving.and for many of us,we weren't going to be coming back which made it suck even more.POP was over real quick and yup.it was the end.the official parade was now over.without ranks whatsoever.the last march past was too much to take.:(

Next came debrief.the longest last debrief together.sighs.it wasn't enough to end it off in a few sentences.the last dismissal.it was a major heartbreak.we were really being dismissed.there was no need to come back anymore.the feeling really really sucked.
Hugging and bidding farewell was terrible.the water taps went haywire once more.haha.

The sec 2s:
The gifts were really really sweet and really touched me alot.you guys are so cute and are a very good talented squad so keep it up.the next 1 year is gonna be the highlight cuz honestly,there's nth nice about being a ma'am except teaching and stuff.(of cuz there are some who abuse their authority and just dun understand limits).I really LOVED the spongebob u guys gave as I always wanted a spongebob soft toy and it was really a pleasant surprise.thank you so much for the generous chocolate bars!I LOVE cadbury chocolate bars.they will definitely be put into good use during our mugging sessions.:) the letter was really nice and cute.and definitely NOT forgetting the ROSE.:)really sweet.undescribable.

Sec 3s:
There's really nothing much we can tell them.let's see.they really need GOOD LUCK.cuz they do have many fucked up puppeteers above them who will try to make them into puppets and do their bidding.I really hope they dun lose their backbone and conform.this is where unity comes in.united they stand,those puppeteers will be out of jobs.let's see.:)
Some hearts got smashed.some were pleasantly surprised.since u got it, go for it.at least u still have an involvement.unlike us.leaving.it's going to be a hard journey.we can't say anything but To FOLLOW YOUR HEART.there will be times u won't be allowed to cuz dun forget:ur being moulded into nice puppets that are hollow.but don't worry.we survived.and my heart's still intact and I know that after all the tears.u will too:)

Omg.I still remember when they 1st came in as sec 1s.now they re maams.wow.it was a rocky journey for both but everyone comes out stronger eventually.:)

Sec 1s: really nth much to say except that they have a long way to go.even if it's tough,stick it through.it's really true that what doesn't kill you,only makes you stronger.:)

My eyes are real swollen from all the tears.so puffy and small.n i'm going out tonight with such ugly eyes.=.=

POP maybe over but there are some grudges always.n now that there are no strings attched,I dun see a need to conform anymore.I always thought POP is a solemn occasion.it's where tears and joy are brought together.tears that a squad is leaving.joy that a new batch of leaders are born.tears that bid goodbye to the seniors.joy that it's time to move on to something new.but some ppl just dun get what their limits are.it's OUR POP.(I can't believe I'm being so defensive.)what's up with the laughing and giggling throughout the whole thing?I dun exactly see anything funny.wow.so funny man.they are crying like losers!haha.omg,her marching so funny!haha!good riddance that they re finally gone.whatever fucking reason u have,it would be much appreciated if u could honestly shut that fucking trap of yours and get lost till POP IS OVER.(I can't believe that once upon a time,we were blinded.)the laughing and giggling.just pure annoyance.I know it's meant to annoy.so my response: FUCK OFF.
N then comes the news that we need to be told off how we failed the unit blah blah blah.OMFG.that was so funny.really.cannot take it.u wanna tell us all the bad things we have done?even yr puppet will shoot u back man.I dun think anyone has done that to the leaving batch.seriously.I think we r more of a book that shows the mistakes that can be done and how u should learn from it rather than some ppl who are just plain disappointments to themselves and their juniors cuz their reputation meant so much in their freaking swollen heads that thy didn't warn or caution the new ones in case of LOSING FACE.the day they did that,they SMASHED THEIR FACES.you need to know that if u think we failed,then u played a fucking big part in it.(definitely nobody would claim responsibility.losers always do that).I'm not saying they r the only ones in the wrong cuz definitely the sec 4s will take responsibility.My opinion:I dun really think we failed anything cuz even if we couldn't get along,we set it aside when doing smth for the unit and do it to the best of our ability.juniors became our 1st priority when needed.actually there's no need to substantiate anything anymore since it's all over but it's sad that I dun have any seniors to remember but it's alright.I have extremely nice juniors to remember forever and ever.:)))

Alamak. My long posts are back. LOL.:)
HCBC. I must thank RC for bringing us together. I nvr know what I would do without them. Ok babes. Showtime's over.it's time to move on to our next goal.let's do it together.
Dun forget to bring the necessary stuff on Monday ah.got tuition by yr oh so nice tutor; ME.haha.:)must start studying for SS.3 more weeks to PRELIMS!!:)so excited.I duno y.

Next:CEDAR LIT UP
IT WAS not bad actually.very nice.but the view from backstage ok la.was telling Izzah about POP and stuff.:)

P.S: remind me to bring yr gifts on Monday!couldn't bring yesterday!!!

P.P.S: it's not 100% in yet that POP IS OVER.=.=